I used to wake up every day smiling with great joy in my heart, every single day.
No matter what, I was always happy and grateful to live. I looked many times at people with problems and depression and I could not duplicate them.
I just couldn’t even imagine why a person would not be able to smile.
I had many problems myself. A violent father, a mother that couldn’t love me for some reasons only known to God, but this did not matter.
Every day I was opening my eyes to the world with enthusiasm.
I would never think I would find myself down in the dark hole of pain.
Now I understand… i started to understarstand why people are upset, how they feel.
I understand how unreal it can be to people who have never being there…
In these sad moments people can tell you about future and happiness but the only thing you feel is pain and degradation. Such a strong pain that it exhaust you. The reason is so powerful and deep rooted is that is getting his heavy charge from past implants.
Love and understanding are the best way to get somebody back.
Finding your ‘family’ is another important step.
But what is ‘family’?
Many of us never really had one, others were so lucky to have one,
even if they took it for granted.
Family, is a place where you feel safe,
where no matter what you are loved.
Where you know you can disagree or have a bad day
and you are loved and respected despite of that.
Is a place where you know you want to flow all this love back.
I always wanted one. 😀
This morning I woke up at Aida’s place.
Again, after so long I feel love everywhere… I felt home.
This woman has so much love and care like very few.
I think she needs to be acknowledge for that, because, she also have been attacked unjustly, and 3rd partied.
But I can tell you, she is part of my new family.
Sometimes you need to really look, who is behind the huge by passed charge, the unhandled upsets and the abuses.
There are wonderful people who are struggling to get out of it like many of you and I.
When I hear people saying: “I do not want to have anything to do with her/him because they are just upset…” I know that they do not look. They are unable to love because they are too busy judging and fighting their own charge.
Inability to grant beigness is an indicator of charge.
But if you are able to go behind the appearance, you will discover the most beautiful beings.
What I’m looking for?
I’m looking for people who like me believe in love, in honesty.
They know that they can be there for each other no matter what, and will never let go of their family.
People that need a family and are wondering where their family members are.
I tell you where we are… spread all over.
Some of us are so discouraged that are closed in themselves hopeless, some other look and look like me.
This comm is dedicated to all of you.
I hope in one way or another it can reach you and we can find each other. Create together a world that we have always believe it should exist.
The trick to flourishing and prospering is being with your true group, spiritually wise, means being at home.
Where people are always happy to see you and you always happy to see them. It is a beautiful world.
Lets find each other… 😀
Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 7.