If it happens you should all know…
I will never take my own life.
After being very close to death due to my ex-partner’s physical violence, after having experienced a horrendous psychological deterioration over the years due to the nullifications, perverted control, invalidation and threats from both the Church of $ and my ex (both very important elements in my life), I went into deep depression and I have been suicidal for the last 2 years. This ended last June 2010 when Aida Thomas, a fantastic Class VIII, put me in session and with pure love and the application of Standard tech got me out of that unbearable pain I was in.
Since than my spiritual journey has been a blessing.
I have been working every day with solo sessions and others auditors to rehabilitate myself… it has not been easy and some days have indeed been very tough. Who knows how many days I have cried, how many nights I spent awake in bed, how many ways I have fought to gather enough strength to go on …
During these times I met few people
who are now very close, spiritually talking, to me.
I have found “home”, a family where for the first time
I can be myself without being punished.
I have been accused since very young to be selfish, because I dared to ask what I wanted.
I was punished for having my view-point. I have been accused by many of my friends or partners to be antagonistic when I was simply stating a different view-point.
For years I thought there was something very wrong with me…
Even very recently in the Independent field MJ and his little group disconnected from me like I was a dangerous bitch. No comm or willingness to clarify what happen in their part beyond their lies to others.
These are the very people I helped beyond saying and they all acknowledged at one point or another how my energy and power had helped them improving their lives.
This has nothing to do with self-pity… it is an analysis of my life.
I love these people very very much and I do hope one day they are able to give up they little withholds, and reestablish a good comm and ARC which is after all the only thing I care.
I have done many things wrong myself, things these people would be so happy to blow up to giant proportions to show how evil I’m…
Just like the Church of $ is doing with whoever exposes their crimes.
What a game…
On my part I’m not interested to play any of this.
Today, I’m in a great place.
Mr Smith, was sitting down with me and telling me how just with his presence he used to piss off people. I laughed… I know exactly why, it has nothing to do with him.
He is an amazing guy… he is so theta and direct, he is one of these people you could call a “spiritual master”. In his space there are no games conditions, no fake beingnesses… there is an infinity of space. Yet, his power is unbearable to many.
His awareness and ability to read people thoughts misses inevitably their withholds.
No wonder why most of the greatest spiritual figures
have been murdered.
Well, during the last months I gradually got back into my basic purpose of Spiritual Freedom.
I have achieved more that I would have expected
to achieve this lifetime…
and the exciting thing is I just started this new journey.
Tons of charge gets released every session and my space is getting bigger and bigger. I’m getting stronger and stronger. Powerful.
I guess if I was restimulative before to many, right now I must really be unbearable to them.
Power. But power as knowledge, space… awareness.
Power as being here and perceiving.
That is what truly scares people to a point that they want to destroy you.
Today I talk. Against the many advices of my friends or threats from people who consider me an enemy, I talk. I work toward truth, no matter what.
I’m aware that by posting and exposing truth I will be attacked, I will lose friends or become unpopular… and you know what ?
I do not care. I’m not afraid to die.
I have been face to face with death, with the shock related to the fact that death was being brought about by a person I loved more than myself.
This experience has given me a totally different viewpoint of life.
Things get the right weight…
This, after you realize that in a second or two, if he continues to squeeze, you could lose everything you have, your family, your kid, the people you love…
A little more pressure for a little longer and your life will disappear into a nothingness. Silence.
So, every day when I write I think… “if what I say will help even only one person, I have done my job.”
I feel blessed to be alive,
because I’m now working on the right direction
achieving miracles every day.
But I’m getting stronger and powerful beyond belief and this upsets people.
There are certain liabilities connected with growing and getting stronger…
If that happens, if my body disappears, you should know it is by someone else’s hand.
So they know you know… 😀
Today I’m living my life. Is not my life that is living me anymore.
I was lost for a while… but I found my path again.
Please find yours.
It is worth it!
Love you all sincerely.
we are here to help!!
If you are still in the church as staff or as public and you need help to get out, if you just left and you need help, please call or write to:
Silvia Kusada e-mail: SKusada2010@gmail.com
Aida Thomas: e-mail: firstname.lastname@example.org
LOS ANGELES ex SO STAFF ONLY:
contact Aida Thomas in private.
Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.