My last post: Addition.
My last post did alarm people who read it with a Mest view-point.
They got worried about my body.
The instantly assumed that all my solo auditing did not work.
They have no understanding of the theta universe and his relation to this universe.
They have no much reality of the spiritual universe in the first place. They wish to be OT because to them to be OT means to be happy and without problems.
There is nothing further away from truth.
They have a very low confront of their case and of evil.
Being OT means you have abilities and sometimes more awareness.
You have more Power. This is all.
You have more power to do good or evil and to play different games.
A game is not a game without opponents and barriers.
If they wish to have more reality they should re-watch Star wars…
the good guys and the bad guys..
A humanoid cannot even conceive the degree of suppression
existing at the beginning of the track.
The degree is such that only a true OT can confront it and even for him is tough…
you going through hell.
But going through hell does not mean you are not OT,
means you are going through hell as an OT.
People on lower tones and of lower awareness cannot duplicate that.
They look at you and say:
“What kind of OT is that?”- “Look he is OT and he is more fucked up then me!”- “If by becoming OT you end up like that, I’m not interested”.-
When I hear this comments I know, these people are stuck in a MEST trap.
They have no clue of who they are and of what is going on.
Yes, I might have wished many times to kill myself,
actually to be precise, this GE did,
but this does not mean I’m not having successes with my soloing
and that I’m in a bad shape. My GE is.
It is normal when you are entering into stuff and you take them apart.
Do not be alarmed. I’m a tough being and in this universe or another I’m going to be fine…
I’m not going to stop.
I’m going to cry as loud as its needed,
to fight, sometimes to lose.
But i will get up and re-try.
I’m not interested on playing safe…
I want my freedom.
The ‘tropical Jungle’ is quite a challenge to cross.
Hope this clarify things better.
You do not need to be concerned for me…
I’m getting out of here, I’m struggling on my way out this trap.
Those silent, perfectly “happy” people
are the one you should be concerned about.
They are just stuck, they cannot even feel anything.
They are “dead thetans”, at least I’m alive.
I do prefer to suffer than to be dead
(I’m talking from a spiritual view-point of course)
Love and many thanks to all my great many friends.