“We are all born unique, but most die a copy…”


“We are all born unique, but most die a copy…”

Many times I thought I did not like myself

but I found that to not hold true.


I did not like the sadness and pain which permeated my universe



even when it seems

does not take you anywhere…


Today after the miracle of last week

I’m enjoying my space as I did not do

since few lifetimes.


I can feel more clearly the love of my true friends.

I smile and smile.

There is no time right now,

just beauty,

the potential dream of infinity.









Alone we go faster, but together we go far…





and do what LRH wanted them to do:



The ‘Center of Advanced Spiritual Research and it’s Applications’ is NOW open in Texas and Italy.

We unite spiritual beings

while helping OT’s to live as OTs.




I’m a Class VI auditor, 2 Flag Internships  and an OT7+

and I’m auditing daily on the solo’s upper levels on the OT band.




My team and I are available to travel in USA and Europe.

We deliver in English, Spanish and Italian.

Center for Spiritual Research and its applications


ITALIANO/ENGLISH: e-mail: SKusada2010@gmail.com

ESPANOL/ENGLISH: e-mail: dianaclass8@yahoo.com
ITALY: Silvia Kusada/Maurice Pascal


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 7+.



  1. where we are at, the level of ones state: in reality uugggghhhh…
    Reality can be when it hits, comes in as new awareness=cognition, like a ton of brick it and be so strong that it shatters all the previously established reality. One is flattened, one find self in pieces ones universe that is. Sort of reeling as one view ones universe and wonders, now what is next? How this effect will be on me, and now what the next step, is there a tomorrow and what it will bring?
    Major cognitions have major effects.. when that happens ones sees one’s life rolling past front of eyes, in my case the knowledge the understanding of things shifts with speed of light as the blocks – masses of different reality re-arranges itself. Literarily one can experience “see” the re-lined energy a fascinating phenomenon.
    I have been on a steady level, for a few weeks, not to many sessions, or cognitions, I felt I was walled in; of course the walls are the heavy winter days, cold and gray beside other thought still sipping in.
    Today’s cognition was brought on by the communication with Chris. [Thank you Chris]. I see Chris reaching for the stars, looking for realities, outside of the MEST universe. Nothing wrong with that since we all want to know what is outside of the MEST if there is such a thing as outside of the MEST.[ there is no outside or inside: those are just believes that there is such o thing. Only solid object have inside-outside… the words were coined so we could communicate, to know the mugs outside is glazed red….
    But what I have not seen Chris doing all these past months, not writing of every day stuff which happens in ones daily life, I have not read any cognitions any thought on the basic= daily stuff happening. That was not real to me, since I believe and my reality is one must handle the incoming daily stuff, no matter how mundane they seem. Through that daily confrontation, even if one has to look for the reason like: ones ingrown toe nail one can achieves the understanding everything which includes the Quantum mechanics, one can experience the speed of light etc…. Through the confrontation the daily ARC B’s one finds stuff the original creation the original energy which can go back before time was ever invented. In this case the now ingrown toe nail long time back a galactic explosion has been and now just a painful toe. This is on example how we become small in creation an ingrown toe nail is a manifestation which could have been and usually was zillions of years back.
    No matter how minute one’s ARCb’s exists in now with the incoming daily , problems the original energy on which that ARC B could have been built on old as the Universe itself.
    So back to my cognition, I realized that why all the persons everyone who ever had a cognition through auditing and felt out of this world, felt that could move mountains, even the universe. Felt the power, the joy which could not be expressed with words. Felt that finally they have achieved their dreams, they reality and finally they were at home with that touched experienced the “”self’s “” original state how it felt when one was not sitting in the MEST walled in solid by one’s own agreements. And what that Grand State that has been!!
    Yes, all that is true, that is how cognitions feel-what is. . But that was as the item was erased, it was just temporarily – briefly – momentarily regained state one just got a glimpse- hint – clue – foretaste of that reality what is like to be without the Bank out of the MEST way back till that MEST closed in again.
    But after that comes the key-in back to the MEST and that time the reality, its impact is much harder – solider to experience – more difficult to take, experience, the reality is harsh-er – more severe to be in. It feels like one is fallen from Heaven into Hell. What is the reason for that? Simple, one felt Paradise few sort period of time the Heaven for the first time since eons. Just how far one falls tumbles, descends back to Hell?
    Far as ones lowest heaviest thoughts, considerations agreements are.
    I do realise, how difficult is being in that state and how one yearns to be out of it and to be again in that keyed out state. But that only can be achieved if one continually confronts that daily everyday mundane stuff, the everyday doing-ness , simple things, the uninteresting things. By doing so the universe slowly reveals itself again as one erases those walls.
    Ones heaviest thoughts, agreements, compulsions, the must haves which for humans is sex- food sleep believing in such as death, life- and the believe in their value, any need of stimulations in regular form hold that being in the MEST. One only can be or one is far as ones heaviest compulsion thought agreement are, in other words one’s case level is just that –there.
    Since humans have fear, and the fear hold all in place and that establishes the case level it’s basic which is fear. [of course there are keyed out instances, which could last, so there is fluctuation but the fear is the base which holds the being solidly in the MEST. You can ask why fear exists….. Because value exist. … One believes in good- noble, in bad – evil – wicked, better- superior or worse, inferior, second rate – wise- stupid etc…. Those are minus and the plus which holds the MEST games in place, without those conditions there are no games. We play therefore we pay…
    I wonder from where that saying is originated” there is no free ride.”
    This is the reason after cognitions the person seems to lose that height and that incredible sensation – awareness – perception – insight –acuity –wakefulness – the being has descended- plummeted back to the bank.. Where none of those things are present…existing… But one never lost the wins, no matter how deep one plummets… falls back, that will remain with the being those wins are the first truth the being ever realized..
    The cognitions are like pearls. Each one is born out of pain and suffering,
    out of mystery, secrets, and darkness.
    Yet how beautiful they are!
    They can vary in momentarily importance before they vanish.
    Yet they remain yours for ever in the form of invisible knowledge.
    The basics are the rarest of all pearls, since only few exist!!!
    They value buy your freedom out of the MEST Universe.
    For your future you have my best, my postulate,
    On endless string of pearls of great beauty.

    • Dear Elizabeth, you say “The cognitions are like pearls. Each one is born out of pain and suffering,out of mystery, secrets, and darkness. “. I agree but i would like to add, i do not want ” an endless string of pearls of great beauty. “. What i want is ” The basics are the rarest of all pearls, since only few exist!!! “, i am looking for these few basic pearls.

      • Rafael i got that…. but one cant chose the cognitions… one never knows, what comes out of the invisible bag of goodies..
        Come to think of it, one do not exist without the other…we must have all in order to become free.. by now on my string I am sure there are list 100000 pearls of different size.. every one beautiful… love you too Rafael…

  2. Ciao Silvia io e Nena abbiamo visto come hai lavorato per costruire la tua casa e bello che hai creato il tuo spazio.
    Siamo contenti per te ti abbracciamo.
    Con Affetto Adriano Nena.

  3. game conditions…..love the stuff… as posted in my blog…
    Beings are junkies for heavy stimulation and the craving increases continually so beings usually reach for the heavier energy-stimulation, the heavy game condition instead to take a walk in the park and converse with nature [of course here is generalizations since I can’t write at the same time on every reality level from minus point on the scale to its highest level].
    But ethics just falls in place; out-ethics becomes non-existent [ ethic conditions are part a game conditions] when the heavy thoughts, considerations the low level-heavy energy flows of the bank is audited out. This makes sense because the heavy mock-ups like sex, murder, cheating, lying etc. being audited out then ethics are “ in” automatically.
    When audited out, as-ised, then there is no impulse to do such actions, or become involved or to create such a game condition ever again. But no matter what condition the person is in all can be handled with the simple method of running the Rudiments in extended form and that procedure works on everything and everybody. No special procedures Rundowns are needed. That idiotic idea was sold to PC’s to sell more expensive form of auditing .[ the being was cheated by the church by made to believe he was a special case needed different rundowns to handle his case’.] =out ethic game condition.
    If I recall correctly LRH said it same place that Bank is Bank there is no difference and to that I too agree 100% .
    Everything simply there[ the bank] because there is break in Affinity, Reality, Communication and therefore Understanding of those conditions. That goes for problems to since the problems are an ARC BREAK nothing more…But condition exist and do not matter what kind are they because they are game conditions….
    Here is my reality what is the meanings of these words beside the description of a condition the: good – decent – moral – upright – honest – respectable – proper – correct – right – truthful – frank –forthright –up-front- open or the opposite the bad – immoral evil wicked – dishonest – depraved – degenerated – deceitful – corrupt – shady – crocked etc…. This words indicate game conditions…… all implanted to make the person who views [ like a movie rolling by, believe that those condition really do exists but the whole movie is just a make believe, nothing more] Hard to believe what ones feels at the same time as one is viewing [believes happening to self ] is not real, just a make-believe a dreamed up computer game a virtual stuff: A computer generated game…
    Those words their meanings are, is the part of the game….. nothing more…
    The MEST, the BANK, out or in ethics… every situation no matter what one “sees or feels or believes in” is nothing more than a make believes, a movie, endlessly rolling by…. In life while one is in the game have been stuck -fixed in, trapped caught in immovable position [ till having auditing] but one do have choices given choices which up to the person to choose from, in same as any other game spirited action’s, no matter what that may be, football, hockey, talent shows, who grow the best wheat, the most workable mousetrap, invent a snow maker, the best calculator, anything under the sun or all suns or who shoots the biggest buck, fish or jumps the longest distance—– in any condition choices are given: which position to take: to cheat be a trickster, a fraud in that game, to steal, to kill to destroy etc.… or to give be good virtuous, and faithfully fallow the agreed rules of that particular game condition have been established like in marriage at the altar: be faithful, in sickness and in health in etc…
    There are millions of little games one can be and is the course of one life time and all these little games are encompassed in cooperated embraced by the game which is called life cycle.
    To which one agrees to have by being born- with that one enters, than do, view all the smaller games as ones go through [ view the movie, believing that it really happens to one] to the very end the aging-conditions –the sicknesses which will destroys the body…. one reaches the part of the agreed condition the “death” part. Without understanding what is after that condition… ahhh… the being the person truly believing since the computer has made one believe that is true it is was the very end…end of the game-life…. BUT computer game has not ended, on the contrarily…. No no no…. After “death” is only a ”condition” – “ state”- which is viewed as nothingness, the end…as no one there, one is alone,,, can’t communicate, cant connect to anyone no one can see one, understand one recognize one, hear one…or perceive one, all invisible, there is only void, or darkness etc…. one is nothing- none existent….none entity, lost ones possessions, ones identity, name tag, there is no more, all is gone, there is only emptiness, therefore life has ended.
    The “big gun” of the computer game is that implant is to make one believe what was VIEWED in fact was LIFE it SELF…..That is a Incredible belief … simply incredibly clever implant. BUT You only viewed- seen – watched a movie, nothing more!!!
    Since now the spiritual being believes he is nothing, has no life and can’t communicate since he is nothing than what that being to do next?
    ZIPS BACK INTO THE IMPLANT GAME, GETS A NEW BODY AND STARTS ALL OVER AGAIN!!!! But he never left the game, the game continues… since death, that part too is part of the implant the nothingness, the none existence…..
    He hooked, into the game and roles on and on and on uncontrolled re-views the same movie over and over and over with have very little variations, which I know of but too long to write about…. [But can be seen all around]
    All can be handled with auditing, any conditions.. When finally one is out of that make believe than one really understands what is life, life – creation and the experience.
    My adventure has taken me out of the movie= it was as-ised, life has begun…

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