WORKSHIPPING THE SYNTHETIC HAPPINESS OF A VALENCE
(Valence defined as an assumed personality and the must-do or not-do, need-to-be or not-be (including physical and /or mental conditions), must-have or not-have and all the activities and rules related to that personality. Could be a doctor, a scientist, uncle Joe, a good or a bad mother, Mary, a martyr, the person who loves or hates everyone, the singer or the loser. Anything.)
Today is an amazing day in the field of my spiritual researches.
I have made a discovery which generated a huge grief charge
followed by an indescribable relief.
I woke up feeling upset, I have been feeling sort of upset the last week or so.
I’m upset about failing on confronting the gap of time
between a future, I know of, and the now.
I have been upset with a terminal
which has been so strongly fighting his emotions
to a point of convincing himself he does not have them at all.
Upset about him negatively destroying me with “political correctness.”
I’m upset, because I’m upset about all this.
But today, while I was trimming my beautiful flowers
and changing the water, I suddenly felt happy and motivated.
I told myself “Wow”!
something negative must have disappeared.
It was a second later when I recognized
my happiness was not me,
was the fact that I had shifted on a Valence,
the personality with all the could-have,
should-be of a respected professional woman.
It was my way to win.
Funny game, as you have much better chances to “win”
simply by being you.
The feeling that with that personality I had a place in life,
a game and a bright future.
It wasn’t a win, it was a trap,
as the real win is only an absence of time.
How many times I went into that trap?
I started to cry of joy… OMG!!
That moment of happiness and motivation from the valence..
and many others were gone.
And I was back into my unmotivated,
boring slow life of co-existence with mine and others,
even slower, meat bodies.
What I’m doing here?
But at least this is me!!
(I’m crying of joy right now)
I’m not playing the valence of a woman body,
the lights and sounds engineer,
the house wife or the girlfriend,
the good or the bad person
the spiritual teacher, the man or the woman.
I’m not playing that.
Every single assumed personality
it is one more analytical mind adding up, we do not need.
A mind who is going to think for us
as is us.
And one day I will be free enough to just
recognize without any mis-emotion
that no matter how much a person loves me,
his assumed identity does not want to be with me
and this identity is protecting its survival by pushing me away.
… This being a friend, a mother, a lover
and many times even being one of the valences
(an assumed identity) I adopted.
The higher up you go the less valences and the less mass.
Valences are big huge masses full of significances,
but they also have games and havingness
and when you lose one you lose all of the above.
It feels, many times, as a loss, not a win.
This is because we still thinking in terms of matter.
You lose the games, the feeling of feeling alive which a game gives.
You lose something solid you do not need, but you think you do.
You arrive to a point, which is quite high on the emotional scale
in which you start feeling sort of death and unmotivated.
Again, it is not on the bottom, it is high.
It is caused by the fact that you are less and less mass
and less and less involved in any game
at least any game which this material universe can offer to a free spirit.
So, many do not make it on the spiritual journey
because the emptiness gets them back into a Valence
were you have the apparent peace of ‘fitting in’ again.
The valence does the job.
AS ADDITIONAL NOTE:
The only way you do not like yourself is if you are looking to yourself
from an assumed identity
and that assumed identity is not looking at yourself,
but at another of your assumed identities
and she is saying “I do not like you!”
“You are not what you suppose to be, because, it is me you suppose to be.”
Do you follow?
You cannot look at yourself being yourself…
you have to put something there to look
(spirit do not have mass, space…)
and assume another identity as an external point from were to view
to look at that..
So, today, this boring today
it is so much better than a happy synthetic day of someone
who is played by his valence “me”.
The ‘I’m me’ and the ‘This is how I’m or should be’ valence.
Even the “Things should be this way” it can only be said by a valence.
Are all big lies.
You are everything, potentially.
So me, is always a valence.
and as you go down the scale of emotions,
as it gets more and more solid, self-importance grows.
And people lose proportionally their ability to perceive others,
The big solid me.
“I do this because this is how I’m“
No, you are not.
A valence is NOT you.
It is an incredible feeling of joy
to be perceived beyond the lies of a material universe.
It gives me, the purest pleasure.
Spring is in the air I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.
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