When I hear somebody saying that pain is a necessary thing

in order to learn from life,


I almost wish for them that

a big boulder would fall on their foot

to keep them in pain long enough to teach them the lesson

that pain is not necessary in order to learn.


Pain is a button to produce and deliver energy to the matrix.

To feed the parasites.


Losses, disagreements, arguments, grief, anger, betrayals

injustices and all this negative emotions

feed the parasite of the huge flows of energy.


Moments of pleasure, a lifetime of happiness, recharges the being,

so it can be milked further later.

It is all set up pretty well.



To produce energy in this game,

as opposed from what the mind tells us,

is a liability for a spiritual being, as it suck it back into the Matrix.

The energy stimulus-response mechanism.


Once you start dealing with the dimensions of no time

you cannot go back to play the human,

into the game of flow.

You cannot pretend you are somebody else.

I have made a very big mistake

which thought me a priceless lesson

and steered me into a much rightful prospective..

Love does not ask, gives.

It is a pure outflow.


In a sane group,

your attention would never go on yourself,

because sane people

automatically outflow to you what is needed.


When guys come to me and tell me they love me

I, for the majority of the time

see in their eyes that they are looking at me

as a solution to a better live.

Even if appears to be an outflow, as they are buying me dinner

or giving me a present,  it is an inflow.

They are working to get themselves a possession,

a positive flow of energy where they can recharge.


It is like putting gasoline into the car they like

so THEY can drive it.

Out of my self-importance I demanded love.

We were two people asking

and that, no way could be called a relationship.

A wonderful team, is compose of two element or more

who look outward, who outflow.


If you have to ask to get,

could also be because the other person is blind…

Blinded by failure, fear and problems.

His ego, attention units are inward solving something.

For an advanced spiritual being,

such a terminal, cannot take a place of the romantic partner.

He need to be regarded as a friend to be helped.

Doing anything else, as I have done,

will pull the advance being into a game of self and flows.


And again this is quite a counterproductive activity.


You work on transparency and they work with solidity.


One of the worse indicator are the lies.

A big or a small lies makes things solid and stuck.


There is a liability in interacting too closely with humans,

they will try to turn you into a piece of matter,

into a reality (solidity).


At one point you have to re-examine your steps.


It is extremely painful to leave somebody you love

but you need to do it, at times.

What they really want is a companionship while succumbing.








and do what LRH wanted them to do:



We unite spiritual beings

while helping OT’s to live as OTs.




I’m a Class VI auditor, 2 Flag Internships  

Cl 4 C/S and an OT7+

and I’m auditing daily on the solo’s upper levels on the OT band.




My team and I are available to travel in USA and Europe.

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Center for Spiritual Research and its applications


ITALIANO/ENGLISH: e-mail: SKusada2010@gmail.com

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Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 7+.




  1. Keep it in mind no matter what we do create-experience we do it our self that experience is our creation. But we have a choice do we want to create and have that experience? Yes or no that is up to us…
    Interesting things creations are…..if one creates MEST game that is already born dead.. Since all MEST ends sooner or later, no such a thing as un-ending game.. Only the first part of any game is theta… the creation part… how beautiful how lovely how one is stimulated by that but if one wants to continue than that is already a MEST game and 2 people playing the same game… well, how could be if they both have different reality on that? Silvia look at this a little closer….
    I don’t think he can be blamed for anything since you knew he was a human and what human considerations are …and you still went ahead and started the game…that means you mocked –up something totally different from his reality and no wonder why you did not get your postulates, he was what he still is…nothing has changed…
    You have not made a mistake, the experience was there to have sessions on and those energy flows to be confronted once and for all and have a grand cognition out of all that. One cant lose…

    • Yes I knew. But I also know that any moment can be another entire life. Sometimes people wake up to the right thing. They kind to turn into Gods.
      Obviously I was not enough for him to defeat the fear.

      • but you are good enough, he was just not at the point where he could receive: have change.
        by now i figured out that we pull in our sext item which is need to be handled. just one more item to handle, nothing more and nothing less… there are no losess only wins. beautiful day in Paradise.. how are the cats?

  2. I think I’ve experienced this from the other flow – I saw something that I created that was not reality. But it was an experience I’ve now lived and learned from. No matter how hard I tried, the reality was not mine and I could not change him. Only he could do that. And he did change reality…into something different from how my own version of how reality went.

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