What if the right guy or girl,
the one you have been dreaming of all you life
finally shows up while your heart still bleeding?
What if you still owing that feeling of commitment
to the guy/girl who after conquering your heart
has thrown it away as it would be a piece of trash?
What about if your true love,
is now telling you the exact same beautiful things
your ex used to tell you?
… It would be so easy to give in to the pain,
so easy to just identify,
easy to run away as fast as you could.
That is what the mind would want you to do,
as true unconditional love,
when grows free,
it is more powerful than the ‘matrix’ itself.
The mind wants you to run away
to not recognize the beauty of infinity.
this big mechanism aimed to produce energy to feed other beings,
to keep alive an external society,
is giving you love where you can’t have it,
making sure you are hurt enough
to push away the right opportunity;
your soul mate.
Don Juan, from Castaneda said:
“A true warrior or knowledge
can experience fear, loss, grief,
but what makes him different from any other being,
is that he does not indulge in it.”
My love for John Y still there,
I think W. knows that as he is a very special unique being
and recognises that true love never ends, only increases.
So, my love for John still there and always will,
but what it is increasing right now,
what is growing at light speed
is my love for W., the man who touched my soul.
A man in which I recognize
the attitude of a true warrior.
W. does not succumb to the fear, or the past losses
that hunts you when you are about to touch the power of true love.
True love is there to be taken,
But only few are blessed with enough courage
and inner power to even touch it.
John uses to tell me
that to him was love at for sight,
that he knew without any benefit of the doubt I was the one.
John, while looking at me told me many times
that I was this incredible opportunity he was not going to miss.
But he did, he thrown it away
he did shut off that beautiful side of himself
which would have brought him the life of a dream,
to go back to a safer ordinary life.
And how many are doing that?
How many stop just at the edge of the canyon because
at the moment to fly free into the beautiful endless sky,
their fear suggest them they might fall.
…and, in order to escape death, they die.
They tuck in their wings so,
when by mistake they turn to look behind their shoulders,
are not there to be seen and they can than pretend
do not exist.
Their wings are not there to remind them,
that they could be flying free.
… and now it is my turn to jump,
and I’m jumping, at times with tears,
but I know that
the most amazing experiences I ever had
all came from one of my jumps into the unknown.
a word from one of my favorite philosophers; J. Krishnamurti
“Truth you have to find out for yourself;
you have to walk the path alone –
and there is no path to truth.
Truth is the vast ocean which has not been charted:
it is fathomless.
You have to find it, walking endlessly,
and the endlessness becomes a torture,
a thing that you are frightened of,
if you have not understood the beginning of what we have been talking about.
Then there is no time;
then you are living so completely in that emptiness
that time has gone and there is only the present,
this active present.
– Collected Works, Vol. XIV,118
by J. Krishnamurti
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I’m not a big fan of donations.
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