My body cried all night.
…While I was experiencing the most intense happiness
in the thought of rejoining my group.
I have decided to write about this as I know
many in my position would hide
in order to escape the cruel judgment of the many.
The many which will point fingers and
pronounce your illness as ‘a punishment you deserve’.
I have a different view…
a month ago the opinion of my life,
which I always viewed difficult, painful and hard
The hate, the abuses and lack of love which have filled this lifetime
were indeed a blessing.
I was kept from getting comfortable into a morbid ‘living life’.
What I call; the death of the spirit.
I have been blessed as I’m blessed today
while I’m given a chance to confront this illness.
I have decided to keep away everyone
who is so deeply trapped into his own self-pity
to wanting to give me compassion.
Empathy is a luxury,
“THE ART of DREAMING”
“… one has to understand the struggle of modern-day sorcerers to steer sorcery away from concreteness toward the abstract.
“What do you call concreteness, don Juan?” I asked.
“The practical part of sorcery,” he said. “The obsessive fixation of the mind on practices and techniques, and the unwarranted influence over people. All of these were in the realm of the sorcerers of the past.”
“And what do you call the abstract?”
“The search for freedom; freedom to perceive, without obsessions, all that’s humanly possible. I say that present-day sorcerers seek the abstract because they seek freedom. They have no interest in concrete gains. There are no social functions for them as there were for the sorcerers of the past. So you’ll never catch them being the official seers, or the sorcerers in residence.”
Don Juan explained that sorcerers of antiquity’s most important attainment was to perceive the energetic essence of things.
This insight was of such importance that it was turned into the basic premise of sorcery.
Nowadays, after lifelong discipline and training, sorcerers do acquire the capacity to perceive the essence of things; a capacity they call seeing.
“What would it mean to me to perceive the energetic essence of things?” I once asked don Juan.
“It would mean that you perceive energy directly,” he replied.
“By separating the social part of perception, you’ll perceive the essence of everything.
Whatever we are perceiving is energy, but since we can’t directly perceive energy, we process our perception to fit a mold.
This mold is the social part of perception, which you have to separate.”
“Why do I have to separate it?”
“Because it deliberately reduces the scope of what can be perceived and makes us believe that the mold into which we fit our perception is all that exists.
I am convinced that for man to survive now, his perception must change at its social base.”
“What is this social base of perception, don Juan?”
“The physical certainty that the world is made of concrete objects.
I call this a social base because a serious and fierce effort is put out by everybody to guide us to perceive the world the way we do.”
“How then should we perceive the world?”
“Everything is energy. The whole universe is energy.
The social base of our perception should be the physical certainty that energy is all there is.
A mighty effort should be made to guide us to perceive energy as energy.
Then we would have both alternatives at our fingertips.”
Don Juan’s conception was that our entrapment in processing our perception to fit a social mold loses its power when we realize we have accepted this mold as an inheritance from our ancestors without bothering to examine it.
“After ages of perceiving in such a manner, we are now forced to believe that the world is made up of objects.”
“I am saying that this is first a world of energy; then it’s a world of objects.
If we don’t start with the premise that it is a world of energy, we’ll never be able to perceive energy directly.
“Notice that when I talk about seeing, I always say “having the appearance of” or “seemed like,” don Juan warned me.
“Everything one sees is so unique that there is no way to talk about it except by comparing it to something known to us.”
He remarked that it certainly would be infinitely safer for sorcerers to remain solely at the level of describing what they see, but that the temptation to conclude and explain, even if only to oneself, is far too great to resist.
The difficulty is in breaking the retaining wall we all have in our minds that holds us in place.
To break it, all we need is energy. Once we have energy, seeing happens to us by itself.
The trick is in abandoning our fort of self-complacency and false security.”
The hard part is convincing yourself that it can be done. For this, you need to trust the nagual.
The marvel of sorcery is that every sorcerer has to prove everything with his own experience.
I am telling you about the principles of sorcery, not with the hope that you will memorize them, but with the hope that you will practice them.”
from ““THE ART of DREAMING”” by Castaneda
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