The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.



Day 3: WE did it!!

Day 3: WE did it!!

Today I woke up and felt good.

I have being soloing and auditing agreements,

ARC/ks and implants on the genetic entity line as a main target.



For the first time in years I got up, and I wanted to get up.

Thoughts about my ex were hitting me like rain

but this time they were bouncing away as on an umbrella

instead of hurting me as they usually do.

They did not find the same fertile ground to thrive and spread negativity and pain.

HUGE improvement.

I feel I’m ready to work again.


It is important to me to acknowledge the many friends I have.

Feeling and sharing love

I had so much positive energy and love

flowed to me in the last few days!

They are more than friends to me,

they are my spiritual family:

starting from Aida and David Thomas, Mr Smith, Maurice Pascal, Tory Christman, Nancy Many, Sinar, Jackson M., David St Lawrence, Michele Federici, Leone, Lupo, Claudia,  MaryJo and Tony, Alessandra D’Agostino, Tom Tazanillo, Dominique, Anne S., Kay, Candice and John Aaron, Jim Logan and the many others.

Please do not be upset if I forgot to mention your name.

In the last years or so I have made more good friends

then I ever had in few lifetimes.

 They are not just friends, they are what I consider a spiritual family.

I appreciate incredibly the many offers to help.

It would not be appropriate from me to leave a succesful ‘self improvement spiritual path’ (solo action) at this time.

I’m aware that depression is a continue ups and downs.

It is the way it is.

But like my friend Tory says, ‘You have to look at the trend’..

And despite the lows it is an up-trend.


 I have few people who are checking on me on my spiritual journey (soloing).

I’m aware of the fact that you need to work as a team.
However, I would love if you have any viewpoint or advice to share.

Please do.

We all have blind spots and others can help us to see where we cannot.

Thus the importance of a good (guide) C/S, or two.


I feel very lucky to have your friendship,

I wish you to know that,

even if I do not write personally to all of you.

I have felt a huge amount of love and care flowing from all of you,

and when I say I feel better I wish to say:

WE DID IT!! Thank you!


This is the world of Advances spiritual beings (OT’s) the handling of spiritual (theta) universes,

the group postulating toward a common goal

in the direction of helping each other.


At the same time I’m here for any of you.

And if you need my spiritual support just e-mail me.

Powerful Spiritual being (OTs) together make miracles happen.

Miracles ar nothing more than an OT normal routine.

This is what the Ron’s Org have really duplicate and do.

In this wise they are an amazing group.

About a month ago something very interesting happen.

I fully blew the $cientology history

 and all the agreements connected to that lies (GPM/implant),

called the Church of $cientology.

I felt like before I ever knew $cintology existed,

but with the benefit of all the knowledge.


Many of you have left, but still obeying or been subjected by the past agreements.

Many out there feel they have to hide when they are sick,

or if they have a little accident, or their kids are in trouble.

You re not allowed to have bad news in $cientology.

Many on the spiritual path, ex-scientologists are in a constant hiding, because the have body pains or because their life is not going happily as they wish or others expect.

And by now they have learned that pretecnce (PR) and appearance are THE important thing.

This is crazy.

When you see this smiling happy people in the Church of $cientology (up the stage at Flag)

or on the Freewinds attesting highesr levels (OT7 or 8)

and saying that everything is perfect,

you know they are in total denial of reality.

It is actually suppressive from the Church of $cientology

 to demand that you bend and force yourself

to believe all is sweetness and light in order to attest.

That is not being awakened or aware (OT7- or OT 8) .

That is pretending perfection

where does not exist and is mocking up a lie.

An OT going on stage and saying that all his life is now perfect, that he is causing what he likes and that he is nothing more than happy, is scary.

First of all he still leaving in the biggest trap,

on one of the most insane universe/illusion

where he does not have any ability to leave his body

or getting back into it at will.

He does not have any power to stop others (IAS, MAA’s)

 from telling him what to do.

He is unable to go home and fix the house

or pay off right away the huge amount of debts.

And he knows it.


So, he goes back home with a huge heavy lie on his back (miss-withhold).


Think of the times this withhold gets restimulated

and how hard he has to work every day to keep up to his lie.

The definition of OT in the Church is a lie.

It is nothing more than an Hidden Standard.

(As a reminder, an hidden standard is cousin to an evil purpose… see the trap?)


The regaining of ones OT abilities

does not have anything to do with being happy or not,

healthy or sick.

The ability to make the right choices, ethic. truth

and the level of integrity is the road to happiness.

When a NEW OT 8 is ashame to go to the org because she is in pain,

you realize you are dealing with a system of enslavement, not freedom.

It is a “society” that cuts communications and beigness,

 it does not free them.

I know for a fact that many, many of you out there

are experiencing this phenomena,

many of you are not communicating

because you think your life suck,

you are not making money

or are not healthy enough to meet others people expectation

of what is right or wrong.

It is also an Hidden standards.


-“OMG!! Is that an OT?”-


Privacy” to many times is nothing more

that a common agreement to withhold.

It is also called ‘Mutual outruds’.


When I write about my private life on the net,

I’m trying to make a point also to myself.

First, I never liked secrecy and I do not have anything to hide.

This is who I’m.

Yes,  I do not do well with conservative people!!


Second, I wish people to be free,

I wish for them to start looking at each other for who they really are:

beautiful spiritual beings, and not been seen

for what the own or how they look.

I wish people to differentiate between the material universe

and the spiritual one.

No one can tell you how an enlighted being is (OT) is or should look like.

An OT dog. (He! He! I’m Joking)


An OT is an OT because he lives as such.

And it is the most ridiculous thing to award an OT status

by the mest universe standards..

that is what we can ironically call a MEST OT.

Sadly enough, a MEST OT is one of the most confused,

enslaved  but “smiling and happy” spiritual being.

When an OT tells you his/her life is perfect, you should know something.

He or she is not living. He or She is in denial.


In this universe, in this game call material world there is no perfection.

Losing and winning, create and destroy are just part of the rules.


You are OT when you trust and use your knowigness,

 when you stops listening and obeying thoughts,

when you stop play by the rules

of the cannot-have-or-do of this universe,

when you believe in magic and freedom.

You are OT when you do not evaluate yourself

or others by what your eyes see, but by what they are.

When you realize that any time you lie,

you are invalidating the knowigness of a spiritual being.

OT is a state of mind, is living truth, is you.

And the less additives to the ‘you’…

the more OT is there.

Let’s start communicating!

How do you feel? Good! Cheers!!

Like shit! That is OK.

Just say it out loud!

It is your right to be sad or happy!!

If we can do anything for you we do it,

one thing we can do for sure is directing our posotive energy, love and care to you

and if you let us know your goal

we can make it happen as a group.

Love (Theta) is the real stuff.

The image, appearances, the social lies

belong to the mest not to a spiritual being (OT).

Do not play that game.



If you need help to get out of the Church of $cientology

or if you just left and need help, please call or write to:




Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


‘High tone’ and ‘OT’ do not always go together

‘High tone’ and ‘OT’ do not always go together


 I belive many think that an OT (high powerful spiritual being) is naturally up tone, therefore responsible for others and choosing pro-survival activities for all.

The level of ARC (affinity, reality and communication)

of a being has little to do with how OT she is.

Since the very beginning we run into God’s cheating other Gods..

the good and the evil.

There are very intelligent suppressives and very stupid one.

And the same it goes for good intentioned people.

I personally don’t believe all spiritual beings are alike at the original state.

I belive they have different characteristics, potentials and personalities.

What LRH advance levels increases in a being is power.

Now, you can have a Ferrari.

 That is a lot of potential for this world in a car…

but what you do with all that power is up to you.

You can win competition or you can run over somebody on th street.

At the level where we are now… it i not easy to identify real suppressives.

 There is so much added-on to a spiritual being.

Many evil intentioned group, as the current Church of $cientology,

 restimulate powerful implants and throw people into painful incident

of which they are total effect.

This restimulates evil purposes.

Extremely destructive powerful impulses.

A High tone person naturally act to the benefit of the environment

 starting from himself.

 There is not feeling you must do this or that to be good.

 It is just naturally done.

They are aware of other spiritual beings. They are other spiritual beings.

Lying is  a very low tone form of creation.

A very degrading activity to both the originator and the recipient.

Lying is actually an overt on the 7th nd 8th dynamics

as it does invalidate knowigness.

You are telling that a perfectly valid perception is wrong.

As a form of alter-is lying or hiding truth

 is a game which this sick universe loves you to play…

People that are altering are nothing more than in treason to the spiritual world…

They might make it to OT if they are smart enough,

but they are going to be destructive power sources.

‘Truth is treason in an empire of lies’

I love this quote.

Truth in this universe has a very bad reputation as is very much connected to pain

this to teach us, and to warn us to not use it.

“I will hurt the guy/girl if I tell the truth.”, ‘I do not want to upset her-him”,

‘It is not necessary to be said”, She/he will not understand’

are all deeply implanted justifications associated with pain.

Physical pain and potential loss.

And here we are falling for another bad trick of this universe,

 while betraying our true goal: OT.

There is no reason to lie.


And there is always a way to tell truth in a way that does not hurt too bad.

Lies persist and are the real source of pain,

where truth makes things disappear or heal fast.

It take courage to as-is.

It the only way, not to OT,

but to a higher level of the tone scale.






If you need help to get out of the Church of $cientology

or if you just left and need help, please call or write to:




Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.



Getting ready…

How many of us have someone who are not ready to leave?

May be more than just one, may two or three,

kids, husbands or wives, best friends…

And what are we doing about it?

They drop the body or we do, and all is gone.

"Imagine the frustration of someone who has just lost the body and it is watching his family crying without any means to communicate to them. They were together a life time and never learned to communicate. "


I remember a very dear friend I met in Sand Castle.

She was from Mexico.

Since her daughter was born she started to training her into developing theta perceptions…

They would drill every day into perceiving each other thoughts

and locating each other with their eyes closed.

I thought it was fantastic.


When I met JT during a Christmas party

I advised him to do the Briefing Course.

I could see the heavy grief and suffering he was still in,

after over a year from his son’s death.

Jet with his father John. Travolta

I thought it was really criminal on the Church of $ side,

not to help him spiritually.

I remember mentioning to JT that LRH talked about

helping/auditing your teammate

if you find him in the middle of nowhere into space or something…

JT was so interested in founding out how to get in comm

with his son Jet.

Here we have a man with all the money

anyone would dream of,

with a life that many envy,

which is totally helpless when it comes to reconnect with his son.

On the other side you have these amazing

mexican mother and daughter

able to communicate to each other without their bodies.


What a wonderful connection.

Now, if the Church of $cientology would have truly been

about spiritual awareness

instead of playing the role of a corporation, they would have helped him.

Unfortunately none of the hundreds staff,

auditors and C/Ses could find that datum for him…

no one helped him into that spiritual reconnection.

He has been OT3 since the early 90’s.


What did I learned from all this

and from my last few years of agony?

I have learned that there are very few rich people on this planet.

I have learned that on a beautiful yacht, in elegant fancy parties

there are may be a bunch of “smiling” bodies,

but very few “alive” spiritual beings.

I have learned that the best school you can give to your child

is the school to the knowledge and awareness

of his (not of his body) own abilities

and the skills to use of them.

I have learned about priorities of life…

and confusion.


Answer this question.

Then analyze briefly your day and

look how many of your daily activities are body (this lifetime) oriented

and how many are really for you.


Now, ask yourself again the question…

Do I really wish to go OT?

If you answer is ‘Yes’,

I’m pretty sure you will have some re-organizing to do.

This universe is too good on steering us

and keeping us busy on the wrong track!

This is one of the reason we need each other!!


Reorganize… 😀




I do believe the lower bridge as LRH laid it out

is the right gradient to upper levels.

I have put my spiritual search and progress as the priority.


However, I’m available to get to Clear and OT  ONLY, I underline,

ONLY those that are truly determined to make it out.

(those only can contact me at:


All the others can avail of the many great people

and great auditors available in the field of earth. 





For the list go to:


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.

No liabilities for an empty body…



No aware spirits allowed in a body

in this Universe.

No wisdom, no passion for truth, no integrity

or courage to disagree are ALLOWED.

Empty bodies are OK…

Wanted dead bodies to build an orderly obedient society...

“…the only crime that you could possibly commit is being there.

I don’t care where.

That is the only crime that you could commit.”

20 August 1954 – Axioms, part IV (Phoenix Lectures)

by L. Ron Hubbard



If you wish to take ownership of your body

please make sure

you do not let anyone notice it.

As long as average people think that the body and the deteriorated being living inside

can be controlled, you are going to be fine.

But in the moment they feel there is an independent being

they cannot control in that body,

you are going to become their worse target ever.

The physical universe itself will fight you.


No matter how much you help, how good you are, how caring... they will see you as an enemy!


It is not always true, that people attack you

because you “pulled that in“,

that is what ill intentioned people wish you to believe.

They attack you because they know

you are aware of what they are up to,

because you are able to look beyond their lies.

Because you could wake up others…

So, when you walk the path to OT,

while you expand and coexist with others

you are going to be more and more able to listen to their thoughts

and they know it…

For that only, you are going to find yourself

surrounded by the worse enemies,

attacked in the most unusual ways and with the lamest excuses.

They are going to accuse you of crimes you never committed.

LRH said that a OT cannot make it alone…

it could, but it can be quite challenging.

While walking the path of truth, while regaining the ability to pervade,

while rediscovering the beauty of knowigness…


be sure you have near you loyal friends you can trust no matter what.

Do not engage into the battle of life, no matter how tempting it could be

or how right you feel about it.

It is nothing but a trap.

Remember, your spiritual freedom is your only battle,

if is there you are walking to.





I do believe the lower bridge as LRH laid it out

is the right gradient to upper levels.

I have put my spiritual search and progress as the priority.


However, I’m available to get to Clear and OT  ONLY, I underline,

ONLY those that are truly determined to make it out.

(those only can contact me at:


All the others can avail of the many great people

and great auditors available in the field of earth. 





For the list go to:






If you need help to get out of the Church of $cientology

or if you just left and need help, please call or write to:




Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


You can dedicate your whole life to pursue an IMPLANTED GOAL thinking is your own.

You can dedicate your whole life to pursue an IMPLANTED GOAL thinking is your own.



I had quite a realization last night after several sessions

addressed to handle my feelings of loss and betrayal.

Some people, as normal operativity, run on others a have-cant’have

or others type of game conditions.

Their end product is to get others stuck

into an apparent survival goal.


It is an excellent way to minimize someone’s power.

“To help a family member no matter what.”

it has been one of the implanted goals restimulated on me.

The first lie it was that the person that restimulated it

was not a “family member” in the first place,

despite to what he had me believe.

He used this, to me attractive but synthetic goal,

to tied me up to something

he, in fact, did not believe existing.


Back down the track, and before we were shot into a new game,

we were given a series of implants

and a “memory card” with all the ‘suppose to’,

rules, agreements and lots of fake track of that game

(culture or civilization).

When somebody comes to you and restimulate one of this goals,

which are perfectly aligned with the moral of the synthetic track,

we might feel we are doing the right thing,

and we must do it

in order to be decent ‘human beings’.


The perfect job... the perfect wife...

We do an administrative scale and everything seems

to be what we want

and there, we give our agreement

and we sign our life away to that new lower game.


Trouble starts…

life becomes an endless fight.

What is wrong?

There is a lie.

While researching and auditing I have run into many implants,

many false data, many misconceptions.

I found that the starting of my last 2D was actually base on implanted goals.

To have a nice family, to be there and support my mate no matter what…

were sub purposes.

What is my true goal?

Spiritual growth, to move up to the next and the next level..

What it was his goal?

To play, as he told me many times…

and a family to him it was and it is nothing more than an accessory to his playing.

While I have contributed greatly to his expansion,

on my side, my spiritual growth stopped.

I had to deal with a person that used lies and words to cover his real intentions.

Obviously, that family goal was not getting me anywhere…

But when sitting down to do an administrative scale our goals seemed to match.

We ‘both’ seemed to loved each other, we both seemed to want a family,

we both wanted spiritual freedom.

In reality our vectors were opposing.

MEST deals with solidity, individualism,

threats, instability and bad control

while Theta tends to freedom, harmony and increases ARC

and responsibility all along the dynamics.

I have discovered that

when a being is actually working toward his basic goals…

life becomes magic.

Things align and no much effort is required.

As a being becomes more causative,

he get freer from the mechanics of this universe…


Implanted goals can be fascinating,

can give you the feeling of doing the right thing,


but require more and more effort and more and more agreement

with the MEST universe and many compromises.


They are there to confuse you,

to make you look into the wrong direction

and to keep you busy while at times giving you the idea

you are cause and you are moving in the right direction.

Theta is really cause.

Many times when we cannot make something go right,

at that point would  better be off looking at what WE really want…

because, we might not want that thing we are pursuing, despite what we think.

We might be going for broke for an implanted goal…

and we are just playing the game of our “old friends” the implanters…



training and auditing centers.


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If you are still in the church as staff or as public

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Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


The happy world of the INDEPENDENTs

as free people!!





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