The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.



Marry Christmas… and remember; Lies and miracles are a different breed of cat!!


Lies and miracles

are a different breed of cat!!





But of course to the many confused beings full of false data and misunderstood

they might appear the same thing.

A little bit like the empty Ideal Orgs meaning expansion

or that suffering, invalidations and indigence means survival.


Adolf Miscavige knows something very well:

by entering enough shocks, confusion and pressure upon a group

you can always get people to believe or do anything you want…

even that dogs poop cupcakes!!


Merry Christmas to the smart, clever,

in-tech independents

and to the Cooley-drinker too!!




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A being in good shape acts by knowingness, not as a result of thinkingness…


Truth is equal to itself but only at creation…

Than it becomes a lie…

Therefore every single answer

to and/or from the past

is a lie.


While I was introverting

asking myself questions about my past relationship

I realized that any answer I could come up with couldn’t be right.

Past is gone.

It is not there actually, therefore my answers could not match something

that did or does not exist or something that is persisting,

because even  if it is persisting,

it must be in a constant change…

therefore the answer would need to be

a constant modification of the previous answer…


Note: Questions about the past are just calling for more wrong items.

It seems a complicated concept but it is actually very simple.


Thinking is a low tone activities,

a degraded substitute for knowingness.


Thinkingness: a substitution for an ability to predict. (per2ACC &Tech Dict)


It is not needed where one ‘is’.

A being in good shape does not think, but pervades…

His, are actions and decisions taken in the moment of now.

And because every moment is a new now,

differences, similarities or identities do not exist either,

but they come into existence

only with the consideration of time.

And here we are already well down the scale.

If you can get this concept…

which is pretty foreign to this universe,

you will also understand that to answer the question of why and how come,

is in itself an aberration.

To plan a future is also a form of aberration since

you are, at this point, all the way up the scale,

to the opposite side of irresponsibility.






Veda: 1. we find Scn’s earliest certainly known ancestor in the Veda.

The Veda is a study of the whereins

and whereases and who made it and why. It is a religion.

It should not be confused as anything else but a religion.

And the word veda simply means:

lookingness or knowingness. (PXL, p. 10)



THINKING, 1. that process in which a person engages by which

he hopes he will someday come to know. (2ACC lB, 5311CM17)

2. the combination of past observations

to derive a future observation. (PAB eight)

3. a substitution for an ability to predict. (2ACC 21A, 5312CMll)

4. condensed effort. (2ACC 21A, 5312CMll)

5. comparing a particular datum with the physical universe

as it is known and observed. (Lecture: Education and the Auditor, 1951, p. 9)



KNOWING CAUSE, the person at cause is there

because he knows he is there and because he is willingly there.

The person at cause is not at cause because he does not dare be at effect.

He must be able to be at effect.

If he is afraid to be at effect, then he is unwilling cause

and is at cause only because he is very afraid of being at effect. (SCP, p. 9)



KNOWINGNESS, 1. being certainness. (PAB 1)

2. a capability for truth; it is not data. (PDC 47)

3. knowingness would be self-determined knowledge. (5405C20)






KNOW-POINT, a know-point is senior to a viewpoint.

An individual would not have dependency on space or mass or anything else.

He’d simply know where he was. (PXL, p. 257)



KNOW-TO-MYSTERY SCALE, the scale of affinity from knowingness

down through lookingness, emotingness, effortingness,

thinkingness, symbolizingness, eatingness,

sexingness and so through to not-knowingness-mystery.

The know-to-sex scale was the earlier version of this scale. (PXL,p. 49)



THINKINGNESS, 1. down the scale at the level below effort.

It comes in as figure-figure-figure-figure-figure.

“I’ll just figure this out and I’ll get a computation

and a calculation and I’ll add it up to . . .

Now let me see . . .”

We don’t know how all of this mechanic got into a postulate,

but they’ve let it get in there.

So that’s the level, thinkingness. (PXL, p. 169)

2. the potential of considering. (COHA Gloss)







Wins on the Happiness Rundown.

Auditor: Silvia Kusada




Today I saw that in reality you are almost never yourself

and I understood what a valence really is.

I thought I did not have so many!!

Instead I observed that depending on the situation

you get the  most useful one.

Question: when I’m going to be really me?

Answer: from now on.

Much Love,

Nena B.








This is my story.
My name is Daniel Asse

I am a prominent member of the Jewish community,

Freemasons and Rotary Club in Mexico.

I was in Scientology for 9 years

The Church says that you “must handle” big upsets refunds cycles,

chaplain cycles within Church lines.

This is a falsehood.

I have been trying every single day for 1 year to no result.

I have called OSA INT multiple times.

No one will return my phone calls.

Part 1.

I believed in Scientology to improve spirituality.

I gave them a LOT of MONEY. They intensely regged me for a LOT of money.

The Church became one big reg cycle to see how much they could get out of me.

I paid $60,000 just for my wife’s bridge alone.

I paid $100,000 to FSO for Ls

While having L’s at Flag my wife was having sex with the Snr C/S of IFAD (in Mexico)

Part 2

When I return to Mexico, they both where waiting for me at the airport,

and this guy took me to his church (now as a Chaplain)

and enforced and coerced me to have an express divorce,

they kidnapped me for 9 hours with no food until I sign a piece of of paper

that says that my wife took all the money $127,000 us dollars

from my own accounts, pre-sign checks (for emergencies),

cash in my house and even money under my mothers account,

for her divorce, and that I couldn’t go to court to appeal

for what happened with her.

I was screamed at for my “CRIMES.”

I was constantly threatened with “non enturbulation order”

and suppressive person declare.

But they are the ones who emptied

my bank accounts while I was on the L’s at Flag.

This guy told me that I could lose my house too

(I was married under separate assets)

he took me for a whole week (in his office,

with out allowing me to go out, and threat me that

I was going to be declared suppressive

if I do not pay him more money for the church,

he was pushing me to go back to Flag,

then he took me to CLO Latam to many others t

hat knew about this evil plan to divorce me right away

so the stolen money out of my accounts had a different spin.

My wife, had, in my absence given ALL the money

from our joint bank accounts to the Church for “Ideal Orgs.”

None of this was her money. She came into the marriage poor and penniless.

I put the money in the accounts which she gave away

without my knowledge to “Ideal Orgs”

The Church knew that I was in Clearwater for L’s

and that the money they were stealing did not have my approval.

I believe my wife gave them all these funds

to avoid Ethics for sex with the Senior CS in Mexico.

Part 3

I was hugely upset that all my money was raped out of my possession

without my knowledge and consent.

I threatened the Church that I would go public with this,

upon which they threatened my spiritual future and told me

I was no longer elligible for Flag, to go to Los Angeles.

This was my life immediately after completing 3 L’s at Flag.

I went to Los Angeles where they put me to slave labor of filing in Central Files

for 2 months while I paid my own hotel and meals.

I am public, but I am filing in Central Files like a Sea Org member on the decks.

Part 3

With co-erced pressure they made me sign a bunch of documents

that I would never lay a claim on them, with $10,000 penalty for each claim.

They did not refund the agreed amount but less.

I am learning that OSA have so many WITHOLDS

that while they ask all day long from “CRIMES” they themselves

want to cover up inside scandal.

Why does everyone have to sign pages of documents to not “TELL?”

During my 9 years of taking services at the church,

I realized now, that I lost my wife, my money, my business,

my joy of living, and my family, because they made me disconnect to my mother,

because she is a psychologist.


Daniel Asse




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Integrity and self-esteem… their suffering behind a sadistic perversion of truth.


Another Celebrity Couple leave the Church of Adolf Miscavige

A warm welcome to:






New OT VII and  New OT VIII



Claudio & Renata Lugli, OT VIII ed OT VII  announced their official departure

from the Church of $cientology.

They are VIP. They have been working with many Scientologist celebrities,

included David Miscavige for whom they designed special clothing.

World famous fashion designer Claudio & Renata

after months of struggle are joining the Independent group.

We appreciate very much their sense of integrity

and loyalty to L. Ron Hubbard.


“Scientology works, it is an exceptional philosophy.

If properly applied improves greatly the person condition of life,

his interrelation with others… their lives:

It is the path that L. Ron Hubbard  left us

and that for a while we though was lost.

But we have it, it is part of us

and nobody can take it away from us.”

Claudio and Renata Lugli



We are making it!!!


Grade Completions!!


Grade 1

by Auditor Trey Lots Class VIII – OT8, Los Angeles

Grade 1 was amazing!

After about 15 hours of auditing,

I suddenly realized that a knot I’d carried in my
stomach since college had suddenly vanished!

Years off constant worry and fear had almost completely paralyzed me,

so much so that I just decided that “this is how my life would be.”

Since auditing on this grade, I have come to realize that

I don’t need problems to keep my life interesting-rather,

I can create challenges and have fun beating them.

Thank you Trey for such wonderful auditing, and always,

thank you to LRH for the amazing
gift of Scientology.





Grade 1 expanded and FPRD program

by auditor Ignazio Tidu, Class IX – OT5, Italy





Scientology Drug Rundown and a Life repair

by auditor Silvia Kusada, ClassVI – OT8, Italy-USA



On the last step of the Scientology Drug Rundown

I saw how drugs can generate confusion in a being

holding him back from being at cause…

While in session I felt a sort of dope off and a bit sick,

than all of a sudden I felt light as a feather and a life energy pervaded all my body.

I observed how much a drug can influence a being,

and keep him from being at cause.

Unfortunately negative postulates at times work faster than the good one.

I’m now cause and my postulates are positive.

Kisses to my auditor.





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“…LRH was soooo pissed off when he found out that during the ‘Go’ trial they had made an account for the Safe Environment Fund.


I would like to share with you this e-mail

from Nancy Many, author of  “My Billion Year Contract”

it has some relevant data regarding donations

I’m sure you would like to have.


Silvia Kusada with author Nancy Many


“You can’t believe what this means to me.

Watch my page one video on

At one point I said that those of you that entered late 70’s

early 80’s won’t believe this but it was true.

When I first got into Scientology was

“If It Wasn’t Fun, it Wasn’t Scientology”

I got a LOT of heat for that.
Mostly because no one could imagine it,
and it just made me sadder at the potential that had been lost.
And that so so many never got to experience.
But now, some time has passed,
and watching your video, I once again saw
“If it wasn’t fun, it was not Scientology”.
It drove me to tears.

I think Scientology is becoming FUN again.



Also, just so you know LRH was soooo pissed off

when he found out that during the Go trial

they had made an account for SEF

(Safe Environment Fund)

to raise money thru donations…. Pure Donations.

Those were the most angry telexes of his I had ever seen,
and Janis was right there with him,
so she knows even more.
To the public it just stopped,
for the rest of us, we knew.

He said “we don’t hold bake sales to raise money”

When we have trouble with finances, we sell and deliver more Scientology.

So, when I was first confronted with an IAS reg cycle I said,

“Don’t you know what LRH had to say

about simply asking for donations?”

Alone fighting a bunch of out policies...

She looked at me blankly,
and I never bought a lifetime membership
out of honor to how LRH felt about it,
I had to buy one each year
to continue to collect FSM commissions
so that was my little form of protest.
Your video gave me that resurgence of
“If it isn’t fun,
It isn’t Scientology”
Because I saw it coming back and coming back stronger.
I think we need to dust off that old saying
and use it for ourselves.
Yes, we had problems back then,
but even at the worst we could make it fun.
So thank you sooo much for showing me that that adage
of the olden days is true
and can be seen on ALL the faces you put into your video.
Unless you were back there then,
which I doubt you were because
I was working directly with Scn Missions in Italy
and they were just in their infancy,
they were so small they even had people doing TRs sitting
on the kitchen counter, facing each other
with their legs in each of the double sinks!!!!
If it isn’t fun, it isn’t scientology…..
And it has not been fun for a very long time.
But I just wanted to tell you how much those Smiles,
hugs, and laughter meant to me.  Scientology can be fun again.
It’s not dead.
thankyou and blessings,
Nancy Many










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attainment of Knowledge it is a tough but beautiful adventure… with its shiny and rainy days.


“Now, where one or another of us in Scientology

have been injured by somebody else in Scientology—

which is inevitably true—


human beings step on other human beings’ toes.

And you cannot be right and be human.


People then should just simply say—

the friends of this person and enemies alike

simply get together and say,

“Well, let’s see—how can we straighten this out

I think the best thing to do would be

to back up the truck and get it off of her leg ”

Get the idea?


And if we understand that, if we understand that,

we can then do something about it.

The most valuable asset we have, actually,

is our ability to understand, to do the right thing,

to be kind, to be decent.



By L. Ron Hubbard

A lecture given on 3 November 1955


Searching for truth…



As many of you already know, I have been working very hard

on my spiritual progress, which has always been

what I was really interested in all my life.

I have been going through moments of joy and sadness,

while uncovering lies and deceptions typical of these universes.


In the last few months I have achieved a level of spiritual awareness

comparable to the decades of studies I had undergone as a monk in the Tibet,

few hundred years ago…

Levels that you could only achieve by meditating in isolation for years and years.

Yet, our technique gives us the chance

to get there while interacting with the world…


It has its own liability though,

in the fact that by living an everyday life

you get lured into believing and obeying a reality that,

in truth, is an illusion, a trap,

and at times  pulls you back into the “mud”.



I’m looking for something that would give me enough oxygen

to fill up my spiritual ‘lungs’.


I’m searching for something that is worth living for… not as a body,

but as a spiritual being.

I have felt some of that joy when looking at my pcs,

I saw them winning…

walking toward their freedom.



I’m a very powerful being.

I can do very well in everything I decide to do.


There would be no problem to me to become a wealthy artist or writer…

but this would just be another life… as a human.

Nothing I’m really interested in.

It needs to be a fuller game.


Many great men have approached me looking to start a relationship.



I’m really honored and I wish to thank all of them,

but what they might not know, is that I do not follow rules anymore.

Rules of the must be, must have in order to be, must do or not do.

I shine and they come, because they love the glitters,

but then they start telling me and warning me how unpopular something is,

or how better and safer to act another way it could be.


And I smile. Because what they do not feel comfortable with,

is exactly the direction I’m going.



Loyalty, commitment, love, passion and truth is something that

I live and expect above the understanding and reality of the many.

The many who are not ready to love without limit,

or/and to undress themselves of all these identities,

which they did put on (we all did at one point or another)

in the “cold” seasons of their lives.



Peeling these identities off one by one,

or sometimes thousands by thousands,

at one point will live “you”.


It is what we call TR0.

A being that is able to be there and perceive…

Not “thinking”, which is introversion, but perceive…

which is an out-flow, an extroversion!

There is no past, present of future in just being.


“Thinking is a substitution for an ability to predict.”

LRH 2nd ACC 21A 5312CM11


I do not know why or how come,

but I found many of the laws of this universe do not apply to me.

When I love I love forever…

It does not go away no matter what.

And even in disagreements or past fights,

my love was and is always there stronger than ever…


Many people cannot even duplicate how this could be… or happen.

And so the  games with flows, where one need to let go in order to pull in.

Laws typical of these universes.


Yes, I enjoy very much a good meal, a beautiful building,

sex or other sensations that life can offer,

but these things alone, not imbued by love,

admiration, honesty and aesthetic are just meaningless to me.


I audited a lot over my difficult past years.

I thought I was upset with E. (my ex 2D) for doing what he has done to me.


But yesterday in session I found that not to be true.

He is what he is, and he does what he does,

because he is drowning into his own emotional pain.

No one that is truly doing well could hurt and abuse another to such degree.


But any way, it was not about him.



The person I was deeply upset with, all this time,

it was me and I used him to punish myself.

Him, as the 1.1 perfect weapon.


A many long whiles ago I was into a relationship with a drunk.

After years of abuses he murdered our 2 children and then he killed me.


While stabbing me he was shouting “how worthless I was,

and how much all that was happening was my fault.”


I agreed.

There must have been something very wrong with me

if I did let that happen.

I thought I did not deserve anything but to be punished for that,

this while working hard to rehabilitate myself…


Postulates work… and so I did.


I never stopped studying while, at the same time I made my life pretty miserable

by having around people who could not love me

or accept me for what I was.


Yesterday, when I spotted all these little games,

after so long, I made peace with myself…


I made peace

with one of my worst enemies:




Everything always goes back to flow 0.


If we consider flows:

Flow 1: something that happens to self

Flow 2: something you do to others

Flow 3: Others do to others

Flow 0: something done to self


We can easily observe that is also an awareness scale.

A person in full awareness will probably read mostly on Flow 0.

Because that is the truth.


What is justice after all?

Is something we expect to happen to repair an overt on  flow 0.


It is most of the time;

We lend money to Bill, we do not put anything in writing

and then we complain he does not pay us back.

We let our wife/ husband abuse us,

and then we complain that he/she blows…


The first overt is from us to us,

where we let something not optimum happen…




Let’s remember that there are very, very, very few people in this universe

with a reality on the 10th dynamic (the dynamic of Ethics)

and very, very, very few,

that are even up to be a 1st D (dynamic of self).


If you do not believe me, why do you think LRH

wrote so many volumes on the technology

to handle groups and individuals?

Why did he put rules and policies all over the place?


The need of Justice in a group is proportional

to the responsibility or lack of it

on the part of their members toward themselves or others.

It is a stopgap.

A temporarily solution while the leak or tube needs to be fixed.


It is a beautiful adventure…




good news:


Adolf Miscavige during the last event announced

the construction of a monument

to acknowledge the numerous contributors

to his Real Estate campaign:

The Ideal Orgs.

Just when we thought was everything about HIM!!!


The 3 biggest contributors were chosen

to pose under the monument…




and were given a free T-shirt

to wear for the occasion…



(Please note: the last part of this post was written for entertainment only. We all know T-Shirts are very expensive at this time and not likely to be given for free. :-D)


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Question N. 12: Have you ever prevented another from perceiving?

Adolf Miscavige

and his

Golden Age of Out Tech:


an anti-religious “machine” used to degrade

and enslave spirits and beings.



by your actions,


The state of fear in which the current Management is in, is observable in so many different ways...


by your overt products,

by the absence of results,





by the level of desperation from which

you plan and carry out attacks

using lies, pshychological violence

and Black PR,




You should know that,

by your actions,

you will be recognized

for what you really are!!



In how many of the actions described below,

a person dedicated to enslave,

would engage?


How many of these questions

would read if one were to ask

DM or his followers?

Probably none, as they would only read

if  it was a violation of their moral code,

if a minimum of responsibility would be present…







“The following letter and Dynamic Processing Checks

were received from an International Council Member. (…)

“Dear Ron,

… love,



  1. Have you ever denied the existence of spirits?
  2. Have you ever made people believe they weren’t spirits?
  3. Have you ever persuaded others some thoughts are bad?
  4. Have you ever made a spirit evil?
  5. Have you ever made another forget?
  6. Have you ever forced a beingness on another?
  7. Have you ever made another believe he was somewhere else?
  8. Have you ever made another believe he was in a different time?
  9. Have you ever made another believe he was someone else?
  10. Have you ever confused another’s memory?
  11. Have you ever persuaded another there were things he must resist?
  12. Have you ever prevented another from perceiving?
  13. Have you ever prevented another from being something?
  14. Have you ever convinced another his postulates didn’t work?
  15. Have you ever made another experience something he didn’t wish to?
  16. Have you ever convinced another that he was weak?
  17. Have you ever convinced another that he was incompetent?
  18. Have you ever convinced another that he was insane?
  19. Have you ever convinced another that he was stupid?
  20. Have you ever convinced another that he was dishonorable?
  21. Have you ever driven another insane?
  22. Have you ever enslaved another’s soul?




  1. Have you ever convinced others that some things are unknowable?
  2. Have you ever convinced another that there were effects he couldn’t create?
  3. Have you ever convinced another there were places he couldn’t be?
  4. Have you ever persuaded another that someone else made him?
  5. Have you ever convinced another that there were beings with whom he couldn’tcommunicate?
  6. Have you ever convinced another that he doesn’t make his own future?
  7. Have you ever persuaded another that some things cannot be communicated?
  8. Have you ever convinced another there were places he couldn’t leave?
  9. Have you ever persuaded another that he never created anything?
  10. Have you ever made another irresponsible?

by L. Ron Hubbard



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