She would probably not recognize you, – I was told –she does barely recognize her own children. Alzheimer has taken her away from all of us.




But when I walked in, her face turned to me. She did not say a word.

She does not ‘talk’ anymore. But her eyes, her eyes became instantly alive as they opened widely to embrace me.

A fearless wave of love penetrated me so deeply and with so much intensity to destroy any boundaries created by this human illusion.

No words could have achieved the same effect, no matter how sweet, caring and sincere could have been.

There we were, together beyond space and time, where the mind cannot travel and forbids anyone to go.

I silently cried and so did she.


She did not say anything, right?” he asked later.

No,- I answered –yet, this has been the most beautiful welcome I ever felt while inhabiting a human body.

I was asked why I spent money to go visit some people.

What they call people, I call family.

They are my home away from home.


The 2 basic programs of this illusion; visual vs HTML

When we enter/are placed in this illusion we are given a mind, many minds in truth, and right there we are faced with our first choice:  going visual or continue to use the HTML (energy-coding vision)?

The very majority of us settles for visual vision offered by the mind(s) with its pictures, interpretations, taste, colors, and all the senses and emotions programmed to delineate and consolidate what we end up believing is us.


The dramatic feeling of been totally lost, is then partially relieved by the sensation of gaining a position in space which gives us some sort of delusional security.

The majority of people spend their whole life creating effects on others in the attempt of proving to themselves they are “alive”, they really “exist”.

I, too, choose the Vision-mode. Thought, for a while, Silvia was me. Struggled to fit in and, too, I was tricked, as the majority of fictitious, materialistic groups disguised as spiritual does, into believing being causative is equal to power.

Fortunately,  I always aimed toward truth, never really cared about power, about competing or challenging others… and I say fortunately, because your true intent is what guides you and lays the stones to your path.

I have always been quite perceptive, but it wasn’t of any help when dealing with psychopaths or psychotic organizations. They have a way to present themselves so as to match your perceptions and ideals. It is all a pretense, an exterior outfit but never the less good enough to cloud ones judgment.

It was only recently with regaining the ability to read energy (the HTML program), I realized what we see with the body eyes, what the mind offers us, is most of the time very different from what it truly is.

When you read a code you can see all the components, the element which constitute the appearance and the one who are prompting its action. A beautiful flower seen by the mind as such, will reveal its poisoning properties to whom is able to read its energy and codes.

I started to work on this. I was puzzled to see how, quite often, the beautiful, genuine smile, convincing words of someone, would ‘read’ on its energy formation as untrustworthy.

So many times I battled with the mind(s) “it cannot be possible” but at last, I became strong enough, to trust my new mode of vision.

The other day, reading a post by David St Lawrence, a man who I admire deeply for his constant help, on effectively enabling people to advance spiritually in freedom, I realized… ‘seeing’ is not something you develop with time but is something we have all along, something we surrender when we choose to let the mind “see” for us.

At the very moment we choose the body eyes as the primary-eyes, our
spiritual sight disappears in the background like a foggy undefined

When I read the energy is always spot on.
Again, where the ‘eyes’ of the mind see a beautiful person, event or
situation and the spiritual mind reading the energy, says exactly the opposite. I know the latter is the one to trust.

We entered a different plateau. Let’s keep in mind that, when you read a code, there can be a very early command which changes all the rest of the code and although the spiritual mind is way more accurate, by belonging to the material universe is still affected by its rules, lies and imperfection.

On the positive side, the reading of energy will give you a much broader vision, unlabeled, of the different flows. Please do realize that a this point there is no roads, mother, cat, sea, sky or any form as we have left the visual-mode.

All you see at this stage is the energy moving; no labels or judgments. And, if you make it close enough to the no-judgment, no-labeling zone, you have also gained a detachment from the mind and you are somewhat exterior to the whole material game of illusion with its duality.

As per the first graph below created and designed by David St Lawrence, the familiarization with the Spiritual world is a VERY necessary step. Only when it became a way of life, to you, to perceive and deal with other inorganic beings, your next door will unlock.

NOTE: All Inorganic beings, spirits, ghosts of a less dense, but still material (energy) form and the mind(s) itself belong to the game of illusion ordinarily called Reality.


Original Graph by David St Lawrence (above)


I modified the original graph by David St Lawrence to add another field and notes.

David St Lawrence Silvia version


For who of you is ready to make the necessary arrangements and to take the necessary steps to enter the spiritual world, I strongly advise to contact David St Lawrence…

He can give you the tools, to get to the door of Awareness.

Of course, there is no place for dilettantism, you are required to work hard and to bring out all the courage you can possibly can… You are the only one who can walk the path.

I think is worth it.




The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.


PRISON… what type of a seeker are you?

We are not all the same…

given a house, some will turn it into a castle where others into a dumpster.




The invisible low life of the mind’s world.

The invisible low life of the mind’s world.


A beautiful being, which I’m currently seeing asked me if I would have charged him rent if he moved here?”
My immediate answer was: “The man I have to be a caretaker of, hasn’t being born yet.”
I could not stop thinking of a more stupid answer on my part.
R. is a very giving person and far from being an opportunist
and the fact that I answered in that manner it was making me feel cheap and greedy.
I spent about a day thinking about it and feeling stupid…
until I started looking all this from a distance and saw the huge red flag highlighting my identification with the program (Silvia Kusada) and the sad self-importance dining with its best friend Mrs self-pity.
That answer was also showing the degree of protest my mechanical-self still sitting on about my ex-husband W. taking avidly from me all I had and I did not have, leaving me drained of both material means and spiritual energy.

At night, unhappy with myself I sat on the couch and seeking help by browsing into my spiritual books… I found my answer when I went through the first few pages of a book by Swami Vivekananda.


“I do not want to get material life, do not want the sense-life, but something higher.”
“Comfort is no test of truth; on the contrary, truth is often far from being “comfortable.”
“After every happiness comes misery; they may be far apart or near. The more advanced the soul, the more quickly does one follow the other.
What we want is neither happiness nor misery.
Both make us forget our true nature; both are chains – one iron, one gold; behind both is the Atman, who knows neither happiness nor misery. These are states, and states must ever change; but the nature of the Atman is bliss, peace, unchanging.
We have not to get it, we have it; only wash away the dross and see it.
“Always discriminate-your body, your house, the people and the world are all absolutely unreal like a dream.
Always think that the body is only an inert instrument.
And the Atman within is your real nature.”
“In religion, as in all other matters, discard everything that weakens you, have nothing to do with it.”
“Whatever is weak avoid! It is death. If it is strength, go down into hell and get hold of it! There is salvation only for the brave.”
“Bless the people when they revile you.
Think how much good they are doing by helping to stamp out the false ego. Hold fast to the real Self.
Think only pure thoughts, and you will accomplish more than a regiment of mere preachers.
Out of purity and silence comes the world of power.”
“Blows are what awaken us and help to break the dream.
They show us the insufficiency of this world and make us long to escape, to have freedom.”
“Both forces of good and evil will keep the universe alive for us, until we awake from our dreams and give up this building of mud pies.”
Swami Vivekananda.
… After going through few paragraphs I felt a great sense of relief.
I realized I was so unknowingly getting into “life” I was forgetting the beauty of freedom from matter and energy. The beauty of not interfering with the plot, of not getting involved with the Matrix.
I looked at my land; “The Spiritual Center” and saw the burden of owing it and the beauty of offering it and letting it go, where it belong… to the Matrix.
Losing everything in my last marriage made me so greedy?
At this last thought I stopped.
How anyone can possibly deplete you from your energy when you are not made of energy at all?
William did not take anything from me. He is asleep, and as all the people asleep works only on the level of stimulus-response of the energy world.
He could not ever touch me, but only in appearance interfere with the false I, as represented by the “Silvia Kusada”.
Another identification with the Matrix and the world of energy disguised under spiritual matters came into view.
If you really on the path, while you self-remember, there is nothing in this dimension, in this illusion or dream that can interfere with you.
So, I wanted to offer this experience with you, as the deceiving minds can do miracle in order to bring you back to identify,
bringing you back into the illusion this prison is a beautiful and fun place to learn from…
I wanted to remind myself and who is seriously seeking truth
that by playing a spiritual ‘game’ instead of losing your mind(s),
you can loose yourself.
“I do not want to get material life, do not want the sense-life, but something higher.”
Swami Vivekananda.
'Ram Dass' Quote

‘Ram Dass’ Quote


Judgments and wavelength of energy types




♣ “The various waves of thought sent forth by people attract and are attracted by thoughts of a similar character. (…) Let one harbor thoughts of malice or hate for any length of time, and he will be horrified at the vile flood of thoughts which come pouring into his mind. And the longer he persists in the mental state the worse matters will get with him. He is making himself a center for thoughts of that kind. And if he keeps it up until it becomes habitual to him, he will attract to himself circumstances and conditions which will give him an opportunity to manifest these thoughts in action. Not only does a mental state attract similar thoughts to it, but it leads the thinker into circumstances and conditions calculated to enable him to make use`of these thoughts and inclinations which he has been harboring. (…) Let one cultivate the habit of thinking higher and better thoughts, and  he will in time be drawn into conditions in harmony with the habit of thought, and will also draw to himself other thoughts, and will in turn be draw to them.” ♣ Fourteen Lessons in Yogi Philosophy & Oriental Occultism. from The fifteen lesson: Thought Dynamics by Yogi Ramacharaka

We have been told so many times to be positive, to never lose hope,

to put attention on good things so good things will come.

There is some truth to it.

It is true that by putting your attention on positive,

constructive and higher thoughts,

you will be able, once synchronized on that wavelength, to perceive,

to “see” or to “hear” similar lines of thought.


You are not more positive, nor your state of mind has changed.

Those flood of positive thoughts you are now perceiving

are not even yours.

All it is, is that by moving yourself on a higher plane

you are now able to perceive the thoughts hovering on that plane.



♣ By synchronizing on good thoughts it gives you a positive prospective of life, switching the mind to a different reading of the energy flow. Optimism or pessimism are just a different type of reading of the same flow, two different wavelength of perception. ♣


This does not mean that things are going to get better or worse for you.

Remember, this is a dual universe and good and bad

(as the mind classifies this types of energy)

are the bread and butter of it.

By synchronizing on good thoughts it gives you the idea

of  a positive prospective of life,

as the mind has switched to a different reading of the energy flows.


Optimism or pessimism are just a different type of reading of the same flow,

two different wavelength of perception.




If you understand the mechanic of thoughts

and its relation to types of energy,

you can get an idea of the liability of judging, evaluating and or computing.


The results of these actions gives you a level

on the wavelength-frequency scale,

and from there you get beset by like-type of impulses

which are translated by the computing mind

and arrive to you into a thought form.


Shutting off a mind, sets you free from such liability.





Although we all have been indoctrinated

and brought up to agree positive emotions are a better

and a more acceptable quality of wavelengths,

the very fact that we allow energy to reach us

hinders the spiritual mind.


Inner silence is the only state where you might be able to perceive

the spiritual mind.


A friend was concerned about his shutting off the mind

taking away his ability to judge and take a correct set of actions.

His concern was the voice of fear.

Fear been the first enemy to knowledge.


Shutting off the mind has nothing to do

with being impulsive or irrational.

Being impulsive or irrational

are actions monitored by the mind and this system of energy.


A being free of a mind observes what it is,

without dragging past into the now.

He act by knowingness, long superior to any computation.


A being free of the mind will never run into a wall.





Now, a robot will.

A human robot (sleeping unaware being)

alike a being genuinely free of its mind,

experience the absence of the mind.


The difference is the robot is way below the level

where he can even entertain the idea of being controlled by a mind.

He believes he is the mind,

he KNOWS he is himself

and he is in-charge.


He is so deeply controlled

he does not even suspect the very existence of it.




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In fact does not respond to expectations at all.


“If our question comes from intellectual reasoning, we will either get an intellectual answer, a headache, or no answer at all. If we ask from our limited ego consciousness, then we will only increase the power of our ego and are apt to get psychically as fat as a balloon.
It is only when our whole being resounds to the question which comes from the heart itself, that as time unfolds and we become more conscious, we can become the instruments in a symphony”
From Here to Heal (Ch. 12) by Reshad Feild


I work mostly on developing the spiritual mind of people

a continuous hard work, which has very little, if nothing to do

with a rational prospective of life.

Many people wish to call themselves spiritual.


And they truly are “materially” spiritual.

Their path to spirituality is motivated (for the most) by their ego,

seeking power, recognition,

and the abilities to CONTROL and/or to BE and HAVE

by exerting intention.

Material spiritual games are full

of goals or expectations.


Most people measure their spiritual power/achievements

by the success they consider having in life,

and by how much of what they wish to have  they actually have.

If you analyze this path you see the being becoming more solid.


They are stuck on “being” or/and “having”.

NOTE: The spiritual mind is free from any position in space

(called the ‘I’, valence, personality, ego)

and from the need of having,

at least as is intended by the rational mind(s).



♣ ‘My counseling today is aimed to help people
losing their human form. To get rid of the parasite, controlling rational mind (s) which tells them what they see or want.’ ♣


The feeling of failure, the worries of not being able to survive,

the sense of unworthiness, of self-importance, the feeling of achievement and success,

compassion, absence of compassion

are simply considerations of a rational mind(s).

All the above does not belong to you,

it is foreign to a spiritual mind.


When a person enter with a pure heart the realm of the spirit,

when the spiritual mind awaken,

it frightens the stability/security of the rational mind(s).

They would do anything to keep their power over you.




The battle is devastating, frightening and extremely painful,

to a point to force a fragile spiritual mind,

back asleep.

A very good friend of mine, recently wrote me

that since he started to walk the spiritual path

all went into a downward spiral.

He has not realized up to date,

that that is his rational mind(s) ordering him

to make a u-turn back in line.

In truth he was blessed by the loss of solidity.

Where freedom from matter is a blessing to a spiritual mind, 

it is seen and experienced as a curse by a rational mind(s).




Achieving inner silence,

suspending judgment gives you power

as render a screaming-raving mad rational mind(s)

un-hearable, and therefore powerless.

My counseling today is aimed to help people

losing their human form.


I have many requests for counseling

by people, very nice people whose intention

is to inflate their ego,

to gain more material things and success.

I do not deal with fullfilling a rational mind(s) wishes.

However, there are many other excellent counselors

who can help them succeeding in their material life,

and to render this illusion less painful,

and more ‘happy’like.


I would like to suggest you to read this simple but powerful book.


Reshard is a healer, not only of people, but of nature.

“Here to Heal” 

by Reshad Feild

 (chapter 12)



“If our question comes from intellectual reasoning,

we will either get an intellectual answer, a headache, or no answer at all.


fI we ask from our limited ego consciousness,

then we will only increase the power of our ego

and are apt to get psychically as fat as a balloon.


It is only when our whole being resounds to the question

which comes from the heart itself, that as time unfolds

and we become more conscious,

we can become the instruments in a symphony”


From  Here to Heal chapter 12 by Reshad Feild








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