She would probably not recognize you, – I was told –she does barely recognize her own children. Alzheimer has taken her away from all of us.




But when I walked in, her face turned to me. She did not say a word.

She does not ‘talk’ anymore. But her eyes, her eyes became instantly alive as they opened widely to embrace me.

A fearless wave of love penetrated me so deeply and with so much intensity to destroy any boundaries created by this human illusion.

No words could have achieved the same effect, no matter how sweet, caring and sincere could have been.

There we were, together beyond space and time, where the mind cannot travel and forbids anyone to go.

I silently cried and so did she.


She did not say anything, right?” he asked later.

No,- I answered –yet, this has been the most beautiful welcome I ever felt while inhabiting a human body.

I was asked why I spent money to go visit some people.

What they call people, I call family.

They are my home away from home.



The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.


LIFE is the biggest agreement in this system and it is also the biggest trap.

LIFE is the biggest agreement in this system

and it is also the biggest trap.


This is a written communication I had this morning with a great dear friend.

I want to share it because I know many of you

agree with him:

He sent me this quote:



“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or objects.”

—Albert Einstein

My answer:

Silvia: “I could create many beautiful games,

but I’m not longer interested in games,

especially if they belong to this “video game”.


[8:41:33 AM] FRIEND:  “Is the result of your auditing,

studies, and work that you are no longer able to live?

I do not feel is a good end phenomenon.

You living worse rather than better.

[8:42:04 AM] FRIEND: “You are not living anymore as oppose to live better.


[8:42:26 AM] Silvia Kusada:  “Your definition of ‘living’ belong to this “matrix”,

I really started to LIVE at one point and

this is the reason why I cannot pretend any longer.”

[8:43:37 AM] FRIEND: ‘Life is a game and you decided to not play

any longer in the middle of the game.

This is telling me there is something wrong”.

[8:46:19 AM] Silvia Kusada: “I understand,

as you are following a rational line of thinking.

You are computing with data and conclusion of a mind.

But the mind is not you.

Is what continue to make this “life” real, 

the lies truth,

and what is keeping you from life, from living. 

There is great suffering while getting out of this clever invisible prison,

incredible challenges and you became a cancer cell to the system.

You get brutally attacked from every side…

My only real weakness has been the people I truly loved.

And it is what the “system” has been trying to use,

sometimes successfully,  against me.


But when you half out,

when part of you have made it

to the “endless infinity of no time”,

you cannot go back…,

you can only go forward no matter what.

Doing anything else would be worse than the most painful death,

would be a steady endless torture.

You cannot play dead at this point anymore,

as many people choose to do.


When you half out.

You cannot do anything but be alive. 

To play a game here require to shut off

your knowingness and power…

and at this point not only I’m not interested in doing it,

but I can’t.


FRIEND: “My definition of life is related to the tone scale

where death is low on the tone scale.”


[9:57:10 AM] Silvia Kusada: “Yes, in fact the tone scale

and most of Mr. Hubbard counseling steps and books

are describing and have to do with the “rules” of this game.

An advanced spiritual, being as MR. Hubbard says,

does not respond to this laws.


[10:00:25 AM] FRIEND: “If you live in this universe, why shouldn’t you obey its law’s?”

[10:00:58 AM] FRIEND: “I do not like Castaneda and anyone that lead people to suicide.

[10:01:33 AM] Silvia Kusada: “To live without awareness

is a form of suicide, one of the worse.”

“You look at death as described in the worse level of life,

but there are different types and levels…

there is a harmonic scale

and a point where for a free spiritual being

becomes a necessary step.

A wonderful step.

[10:01:54 AM] FRIEND: “If a great truth led me to death, I do not like it.”


[10:01:57 AM] Silvia Kusada: “We are not talking about the same thing

and we view things from a very different position.

At one point you leave the body,

when you are ready and it is not suicide,

you relly do not die even if you body does.

The real death is here.

The real death is in forgetting who we really are.

And in the dramatization of a change in energy and matter.


I just had an amazing spiritual counseling session with Mr. Smith, he is one of my guardian Angels.


I just had an amazing spiritual counseling session with Mr. Smith,

he is one of my guardian Angels.


He had me look at something I have disregarded.

I found an incredible amount of forces imploding in me,

me, not my body, ME.

I was so grateful to him. And I thought

I have to really get used to handle this, because even without a body

you have forces attacking you,

the worse kind.


And you have to be able to see them and handled them

not by fighting but by being transparent and let them flow through.


Transparency and inner silence are the only state

where a being is free from the trap (implant) of a mind

(minds would be more precise).

Of course I sound crazy to all and every person

who does not know he is a slave of a system

where a mind and energy flows dictate their actions,

where they have never realized

they are living in an invisible prison.

This, no matter how attractive and promising

life might appear at the moment.

It is all part of a game to keep you a slave.








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You can dedicate your whole life to pursue an IMPLANTED GOAL thinking is your own.

You can dedicate your whole life to pursue an IMPLANTED GOAL thinking is your own.



I had quite a realization last night after several sessions

addressed to handle my feelings of loss and betrayal.

Some people, as normal operativity, run on others a have-cant’have

or others type of game conditions.

Their end product is to get others stuck

into an apparent survival goal.


It is an excellent way to minimize someone’s power.

“To help a family member no matter what.”

it has been one of the implanted goals restimulated on me.

The first lie it was that the person that restimulated it

was not a “family member” in the first place,

despite to what he had me believe.

He used this, to me attractive but synthetic goal,

to tied me up to something

he, in fact, did not believe existing.


Back down the track, and before we were shot into a new game,

we were given a series of implants

and a “memory card” with all the ‘suppose to’,

rules, agreements and lots of fake track of that game

(culture or civilization).

When somebody comes to you and restimulate one of this goals,

which are perfectly aligned with the moral of the synthetic track,

we might feel we are doing the right thing,

and we must do it

in order to be decent ‘human beings’.


The perfect job... the perfect wife...

We do an administrative scale and everything seems

to be what we want

and there, we give our agreement

and we sign our life away to that new lower game.


Trouble starts…

life becomes an endless fight.

What is wrong?

There is a lie.

While researching and auditing I have run into many implants,

many false data, many misconceptions.

I found that the starting of my last 2D was actually base on implanted goals.

To have a nice family, to be there and support my mate no matter what…

were sub purposes.

What is my true goal?

Spiritual growth, to move up to the next and the next level..

What it was his goal?

To play, as he told me many times…

and a family to him it was and it is nothing more than an accessory to his playing.

While I have contributed greatly to his expansion,

on my side, my spiritual growth stopped.

I had to deal with a person that used lies and words to cover his real intentions.

Obviously, that family goal was not getting me anywhere…

But when sitting down to do an administrative scale our goals seemed to match.

We ‘both’ seemed to loved each other, we both seemed to want a family,

we both wanted spiritual freedom.

In reality our vectors were opposing.

MEST deals with solidity, individualism,

threats, instability and bad control

while Theta tends to freedom, harmony and increases ARC

and responsibility all along the dynamics.

I have discovered that

when a being is actually working toward his basic goals…

life becomes magic.

Things align and no much effort is required.

As a being becomes more causative,

he get freer from the mechanics of this universe…


Implanted goals can be fascinating,

can give you the feeling of doing the right thing,


but require more and more effort and more and more agreement

with the MEST universe and many compromises.


They are there to confuse you,

to make you look into the wrong direction

and to keep you busy while at times giving you the idea

you are cause and you are moving in the right direction.

Theta is really cause.

Many times when we cannot make something go right,

at that point would  better be off looking at what WE really want…

because, we might not want that thing we are pursuing, despite what we think.

We might be going for broke for an implanted goal…

and we are just playing the game of our “old friends” the implanters…



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Conquering silence.


I would say I have achieved more OT’s abilities

in the last couple of months of auditing

than the last 10 years in the Church of $.



The magnitudes of these gains to me

are comparable to my OT7 and 8 put together,

even though, I could not achieve them without having run previous levels.

I have erased few analytical minds…

this is what I call figuratively ‘the memory cards’ of a universe,

the normal things, the data, what makes you feel you a good boy or girl,

anything that makes you feel alive because has a ‘sound’;

all of what we usually call ‘thoughts’.


And I went further.

Getting ‘deprogrammed’, in some way,

my spiritual power has markedly increased to a point were by inspection things blow.

At the exact time I assign the proper ownership, they are gone.

Today the noise I found existing in my head

(noise that I did not even notice it was there till few months ago),

have decreased to a whispering background.

I know I’m on the right path.



a team work!!


I wouldn’t have made it without the priceless help

of Mr. Smith, Maurice Pascal, Elizabeth Hamre

and of course the philosophy of L. Ron Hubbard

which I have studied for the last 12 years.

I wouldn’t have made it if not for Eric, my last partner,

which skillfully restimulated almost any major implant on my case.


I love this new state; it is lots of havigness to me.


Today I’m more me.

I do not need to put my attention on people or areas to know… I just know.

This is just the beginning of a huge step up to another level of the game.





I’m getting used to the silence… It is a beautiful one.

I’m getting used to not having as much thoughts and I’m working toward having them all  gone.

We do not need them!

It might be the key to achieve exteriorization with full perception.

In fact, those thoughts were what ended that state twice for me this life.

Thoughts are a skilled way to entrap, thinking is the results of implants.



They make you think is you, and by living a lie

you are maintaining the right amount of solidity and confusion necessary

to be affected by the low flows of the game,

… you are kept from leaving and living.


I used to read tarot. I was so good of perceiving flows and mock ups

that people were just coming to me begging me to read their future.

Now, I do not like to read tarot anymore, they deal with a very rudimental energy flow

compared to the one I’m operating with at this stage.

Tarot have become unnecessary and for the first time I’m considering getting rid of them.

Knowingness is a much better, faster and easy way to operate.

I have started an amazing program and journey, addressing thoughts, no matter how rational or how aloud they scream at me “I’m your thought!!” I blow them. (smile)

It feels good once you know what they are and what they do to you.

Today is a great day;

one of the best days in few lifetimes, a stride forward,

closer to a pure ‘nothingness’ rich of pure ‘everythingness’.





I have a great team to back me up.

Like me, most of them went through death this life

and they well know that the worse death is the loss of awareness.

…and so we are walking feareless ‘shoulder to shoulder’ toward life.

Lucky us! 





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auditing centers.


For the list go to:




we are here to help!!


If you are still in the church as staff or as public

and you need help to get out, if you just left and you need help,

please call or write to:


Silvia  Kusada  e-mail:


Aida Thomas: e-mail:


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


The happy world of the INDEPENDENTs

as free people!!






CHEERS to ANNA!! the NEW German IND OT1 Completion.




OT 1 is such a wonderful Level.

First of all this is the first Level

where I felt making case progress this lifetime.

It gave me a higher awareness and I expanded as a being beyond my own universe

and see more what´s going on in others people universe.





There is no more charge when somebody does something differently

as I think it should be done.

I can have this easily.

Since I did this Level there where people with whom I would not have spoken earlier

and now it happened to get in comm just naturally.

When I start doing things it is effortless and works out well.

If there comes some heaviness in my universe

I check when it started and find the source of it and I blow it .

Also I can differentiate quite easy between me and other universes

and to know something would not belong to me

and give it to the right owner is very useful 🙂

OT 1 also gave me a lot confidence as Solo Auditor,

this comes in I would say nearly automatically at one point

and at the same time it gives more confidence in the own perceptions.

As my perceptions were good already now it increased

to a new plateau not thinking about what I perceive.

That is also what I learned on OT 1 – perceiving things instead of looking with the eyes.

The result of perceiving is much clearer and goes deeper

and brings much better results. It is less work – so again less effort.

The wonderful news is that this is not temporary .

It stays that way. And it makes me curious for OT 2 .

What I like as well is that I can experience the wins from OT 1 in full

and not without any break have to go to the next. It is very relaxing.


Anna is also a wonderful photographer.


Seems to me that LRH was a Genius and the work what he did is priceless

and that he gave us this work for free.

So I will help those who want to go this path.

And another thing I’m totally aware of

is that I would not have had those many wins inside the church

due to suppressed staffs and squirreled tech.



Silvia Kusada and Anna Schultz OT 1

As it is a Solo step one does it on your own but to have Silvia

as a secure Terminal is priceless too.






training and


auditing centers.


For the list go to:



we are here to help!!


If you are still in the church as staff or as public

and you need help to get out,

if you just left and you need help,

please call or write to:


Silvia  Kusada  e-mail:


Aida Thomas: e-mail:


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


The happy world of the INDEPENDENTs

as free people!!




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