The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.



LIFE is the biggest agreement in this system and it is also the biggest trap.

LIFE is the biggest agreement in this system

and it is also the biggest trap.


This is a written communication I had this morning with a great dear friend.

I want to share it because I know many of you

agree with him:

He sent me this quote:



“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or objects.”

—Albert Einstein

My answer:

Silvia: “I could create many beautiful games,

but I’m not longer interested in games,

especially if they belong to this “video game”.


[8:41:33 AM] FRIEND:  “Is the result of your auditing,

studies, and work that you are no longer able to live?

I do not feel is a good end phenomenon.

You living worse rather than better.

[8:42:04 AM] FRIEND: “You are not living anymore as oppose to live better.


[8:42:26 AM] Silvia Kusada:  “Your definition of ‘living’ belong to this “matrix”,

I really started to LIVE at one point and

this is the reason why I cannot pretend any longer.”

[8:43:37 AM] FRIEND: ‘Life is a game and you decided to not play

any longer in the middle of the game.

This is telling me there is something wrong”.

[8:46:19 AM] Silvia Kusada: “I understand,

as you are following a rational line of thinking.

You are computing with data and conclusion of a mind.

But the mind is not you.

Is what continue to make this “life” real, 

the lies truth,

and what is keeping you from life, from living. 

There is great suffering while getting out of this clever invisible prison,

incredible challenges and you became a cancer cell to the system.

You get brutally attacked from every side…

My only real weakness has been the people I truly loved.

And it is what the “system” has been trying to use,

sometimes successfully,  against me.


But when you half out,

when part of you have made it

to the “endless infinity of no time”,

you cannot go back…,

you can only go forward no matter what.

Doing anything else would be worse than the most painful death,

would be a steady endless torture.

You cannot play dead at this point anymore,

as many people choose to do.


When you half out.

You cannot do anything but be alive. 

To play a game here require to shut off

your knowingness and power…

and at this point not only I’m not interested in doing it,

but I can’t.


FRIEND: “My definition of life is related to the tone scale

where death is low on the tone scale.”


[9:57:10 AM] Silvia Kusada: “Yes, in fact the tone scale

and most of Mr. Hubbard counseling steps and books

are describing and have to do with the “rules” of this game.

An advanced spiritual, being as MR. Hubbard says,

does not respond to this laws.


[10:00:25 AM] FRIEND: “If you live in this universe, why shouldn’t you obey its law’s?”

[10:00:58 AM] FRIEND: “I do not like Castaneda and anyone that lead people to suicide.

[10:01:33 AM] Silvia Kusada: “To live without awareness

is a form of suicide, one of the worse.”

“You look at death as described in the worse level of life,

but there are different types and levels…

there is a harmonic scale

and a point where for a free spiritual being

becomes a necessary step.

A wonderful step.

[10:01:54 AM] FRIEND: “If a great truth led me to death, I do not like it.”


[10:01:57 AM] Silvia Kusada: “We are not talking about the same thing

and we view things from a very different position.

At one point you leave the body,

when you are ready and it is not suicide,

you relly do not die even if you body does.

The real death is here.

The real death is in forgetting who we really are.

And in the dramatization of a change in energy and matter.


I just had an amazing spiritual counseling session with Mr. Smith, he is one of my guardian Angels.


I just had an amazing spiritual counseling session with Mr. Smith,

he is one of my guardian Angels.


He had me look at something I have disregarded.

I found an incredible amount of forces imploding in me,

me, not my body, ME.

I was so grateful to him. And I thought

I have to really get used to handle this, because even without a body

you have forces attacking you,

the worse kind.


And you have to be able to see them and handled them

not by fighting but by being transparent and let them flow through.


Transparency and inner silence are the only state

where a being is free from the trap (implant) of a mind

(minds would be more precise).

Of course I sound crazy to all and every person

who does not know he is a slave of a system

where a mind and energy flows dictate their actions,

where they have never realized

they are living in an invisible prison.

This, no matter how attractive and promising

life might appear at the moment.

It is all part of a game to keep you a slave.








and do what LRH wanted them to do:



We unite spiritual beings

while helping OT’s to live as OTs.




I’m a Class VI auditor, 2 Flag Internships  

Cl 4 C/S and an OT7+

and I’m auditing daily on the solo’s upper levels on the OT band.




My team and I are available to travel in USA and Europe.

We deliver in English, Spanish and Italian.

Center for Spiritual Research and its applications



ITALY: Silvia Kusada/Maurice Pascal


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 7+.

No liabilities for an empty body…



No aware spirits allowed in a body

in this Universe.

No wisdom, no passion for truth, no integrity

or courage to disagree are ALLOWED.

Empty bodies are OK…

Wanted dead bodies to build an orderly obedient society...

“…the only crime that you could possibly commit is being there.

I don’t care where.

That is the only crime that you could commit.”

20 August 1954 – Axioms, part IV (Phoenix Lectures)

by L. Ron Hubbard



If you wish to take ownership of your body

please make sure

you do not let anyone notice it.

As long as average people think that the body and the deteriorated being living inside

can be controlled, you are going to be fine.

But in the moment they feel there is an independent being

they cannot control in that body,

you are going to become their worse target ever.

The physical universe itself will fight you.


No matter how much you help, how good you are, how caring... they will see you as an enemy!


It is not always true, that people attack you

because you “pulled that in“,

that is what ill intentioned people wish you to believe.

They attack you because they know

you are aware of what they are up to,

because you are able to look beyond their lies.

Because you could wake up others…

So, when you walk the path to OT,

while you expand and coexist with others

you are going to be more and more able to listen to their thoughts

and they know it…

For that only, you are going to find yourself

surrounded by the worse enemies,

attacked in the most unusual ways and with the lamest excuses.

They are going to accuse you of crimes you never committed.

LRH said that a OT cannot make it alone…

it could, but it can be quite challenging.

While walking the path of truth, while regaining the ability to pervade,

while rediscovering the beauty of knowigness…


be sure you have near you loyal friends you can trust no matter what.

Do not engage into the battle of life, no matter how tempting it could be

or how right you feel about it.

It is nothing but a trap.

Remember, your spiritual freedom is your only battle,

if is there you are walking to.





I do believe the lower bridge as LRH laid it out

is the right gradient to upper levels.

I have put my spiritual search and progress as the priority.


However, I’m available to get to Clear and OT  ONLY, I underline,

ONLY those that are truly determined to make it out.

(those only can contact me at:


All the others can avail of the many great people

and great auditors available in the field of earth. 





For the list go to:






If you need help to get out of the Church of $cientology

or if you just left and need help, please call or write to:




Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


How far can you see ahead?

This is what I believe:

“When we say, we deliver ONLY LRH tech,

it should be said with love

and not with disdain for others….

When we see somebody using some other tech

and making miracles with that,

we should be saying:


Thank you for helping in making this planet

a saner and happier place…”

Anything else would allow the creation
of an another authoritarian Cult,
by the abused name of Freedom.









training and


auditing centers.


For the list go to:




we are here to help!!


If you are still in the church as staff or as public

and you need help to get out, if you just left and you need help,

please call or write to:


Silvia  Kusada  e-mail:


Aida Thomas: e-mail:


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


The happy world of the INDEPENDENTs

as free people!!



Italy Clear? Yes, but thanks to the IND movement!!


Two more couples proudly come out at the open…

What the current Church of $cientology and OSA does not realize is

that once you have taken away from an individual his power of choice,

his pride, his dignity and truth

you have taken away his life.

They have lost everything was worth living for…





Nena  & Adriano Bonfanti


Marisa (OT5) & Guido Minelli

Class 5 (Ned auditors)



Nena & Adriano




Nena and Adriano Bonfanti are holding strong for truth. A story of abuses, invalidations with a sweet end: They have found in the Ind field a new family!!

After 14 years we regained hope to make it to Clear and OT,
we have started to receive counseling with Silvia Kusada.
Many thanks to the Indipendentologo and their articles about truth,
thanks for the valuable comments published and other IND experiences.
We were not on  lines since 14 years ago.
We have given everything we got to be part and support this group,
we sold everything and left to join staff in Copenhagen,
to end up  shortly after being subjected to pressure
to break up our 2 dynamics and right after being thrown out without any help
and ruined reputation.
The icing on the cake for us  it has been
my last 4 intensives Golden Age of Tech
delivered at Milano org (They probably fit into the No auditing category),
after which I felt hopeless about being able to go up the Bridge
and to achieve the state of OT in this life.
I was so introverted by the wrong indications and threats by the Church members,
reverse C/Sing and the MAAs that I thought I was more than PTS, but an SP.
Now we know that by leaving 14 years ago
we saved ourself from further abuses,
make wrongs, further wrong indications, extensive regging and heavy debts.
Today in the IND field we have regained happiness
and hope for the future.
Adriano & Nena
For full story in Italian:



Marisa & Guido Minelli


Guido and Marisa Minelli are Scietologists Pioneers and both trained auditors!!

Free after 35 years into the Church of $!!

With this letter we are publicly announcing our decision

to leave the current Church of Scientology

since we believe it doesn’t represent the spiritual freedom

that was once expressed by L. Ron Hubbard,

instead it perpetuates different purposes

and it has introduced substantial alterations

in the use of Admin, Ethics and Tech.

These are suppressions that have caused

and are continuing to cause sufferings in PCs, Pre OTs,

students and staff members at any level.

So, it is our duty to inform.

We are addressing this writing to the entire Scientological field:

the top of the management, our friends and parents,

and the Scientologists that will have the courage to look,

evaluate and act accordingly to what is right for themselves and their lives.

Only the truth will set us free, and the price of freedom “constant alertness

and constant willingness to fight back”.

We’ve discovered the abuses, the threats, the forced abortions,

the beatings, the instigations of violence, the exasperate control,

the perversions, the alterations of policy

…all situations that were apparently unbelievable –

but unfortunately true.

For full story in English visit:

Per la loro storia in italiano vai al:


IND field




Happiness Rundown


Pc Adriano Bonfanti



Past Life Remedy

Dec 22, 2010
I had life changing realizations doing the Past Life Remedy process.
I realized that I had to be willing to look in order to see anything in (my) life.
I am no longer at the effect of anyone or anything in my life.
I see things I did unwillingly and did not feel good about doing.
I will not sublimate my true self; my values and principles for others
or, assume the valence of others to do such things.
Being true to myself will ensure that all my dynamics are in alignment.
I now know with a new-found certainty that “being there” is just being there with no considerations.  I have a new sense of self.
I feel light and happy being.  Anonymous


Dec 21, 2010
I was FNing from the moment I started reading the materials.
It was a perfect gradient with which to start the OT Levels
and my final cognition was the most amazing thing to me.
Thanks, of course, to LRH, for putting this together,
but also to Les and Anita for making it possible to do something
I first attempted fourteen years ago.  This is pretty cool.  RF

Solo Course Part 2

My success on Solo II is amazing to me.
I have tried a couple of times to get to this point without success.
Of course, I was nervous about my ability to audit myself
and how many crams I would get.  Well, guess what?
I’m a pretty good auditor!
I had more persistent FNs and floating TAs in a week than ever before….
and I think half the win was that I was doing it!
This wasn’t just training for me, it was real auditing, and I feel great!
You won’t believe how the theta of this place
and Les and Anita contributed….  until you get here!   RF


After a lifetime of episodic drug use, I can now say that
I am finally free from drugs and the need to take them.
The NED Drug Rundown has given me the certainty to make such a statement.
I have no hidden intentions to use drugs.
I am very grateful to Anita and Les Warren
for the caring attention they have shown me.
The Life Improvement Center
has changed my viewpoint, forever.  Anonymous




We are here to help!!


If you are still in the church as staff or as public

and you need help to get out,

if you just left and you need help,

please call or write to:


Silvia  Kusada  e-mail:


Aida Thomas: e-mail:


contact Aida Thomas in private.


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.


The happy world of the INDEPENDENT

as free people!!



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