She would probably not recognize you, – I was told –she does barely recognize her own children. Alzheimer has taken her away from all of us.




But when I walked in, her face turned to me. She did not say a word.

She does not ‘talk’ anymore. But her eyes, her eyes became instantly alive as they opened widely to embrace me.

A fearless wave of love penetrated me so deeply and with so much intensity to destroy any boundaries created by this human illusion.

No words could have achieved the same effect, no matter how sweet, caring and sincere could have been.

There we were, together beyond space and time, where the mind cannot travel and forbids anyone to go.

I silently cried and so did she.


She did not say anything, right?” he asked later.

No,- I answered –yet, this has been the most beautiful welcome I ever felt while inhabiting a human body.

I was asked why I spent money to go visit some people.

What they call people, I call family.

They are my home away from home.



The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.


Getting ready…

How many of us have someone who are not ready to leave?

May be more than just one, may two or three,

kids, husbands or wives, best friends…

And what are we doing about it?

They drop the body or we do, and all is gone.

"Imagine the frustration of someone who has just lost the body and it is watching his family crying without any means to communicate to them. They were together a life time and never learned to communicate. "


I remember a very dear friend I met in Sand Castle.

She was from Mexico.

Since her daughter was born she started to training her into developing theta perceptions…

They would drill every day into perceiving each other thoughts

and locating each other with their eyes closed.

I thought it was fantastic.


When I met JT during a Christmas party

I advised him to do the Briefing Course.

I could see the heavy grief and suffering he was still in,

after over a year from his son’s death.

Jet with his father John. Travolta

I thought it was really criminal on the Church of $ side,

not to help him spiritually.

I remember mentioning to JT that LRH talked about

helping/auditing your teammate

if you find him in the middle of nowhere into space or something…

JT was so interested in founding out how to get in comm

with his son Jet.

Here we have a man with all the money

anyone would dream of,

with a life that many envy,

which is totally helpless when it comes to reconnect with his son.

On the other side you have these amazing

mexican mother and daughter

able to communicate to each other without their bodies.


What a wonderful connection.

Now, if the Church of $cientology would have truly been

about spiritual awareness

instead of playing the role of a corporation, they would have helped him.

Unfortunately none of the hundreds staff,

auditors and C/Ses could find that datum for him…

no one helped him into that spiritual reconnection.

He has been OT3 since the early 90’s.


What did I learned from all this

and from my last few years of agony?

I have learned that there are very few rich people on this planet.

I have learned that on a beautiful yacht, in elegant fancy parties

there are may be a bunch of “smiling” bodies,

but very few “alive” spiritual beings.

I have learned that the best school you can give to your child

is the school to the knowledge and awareness

of his (not of his body) own abilities

and the skills to use of them.

I have learned about priorities of life…

and confusion.


Answer this question.

Then analyze briefly your day and

look how many of your daily activities are body (this lifetime) oriented

and how many are really for you.


Now, ask yourself again the question…

Do I really wish to go OT?

If you answer is ‘Yes’,

I’m pretty sure you will have some re-organizing to do.

This universe is too good on steering us

and keeping us busy on the wrong track!

This is one of the reason we need each other!!


Reorganize… 😀




I do believe the lower bridge as LRH laid it out

is the right gradient to upper levels.

I have put my spiritual search and progress as the priority.


However, I’m available to get to Clear and OT  ONLY, I underline,

ONLY those that are truly determined to make it out.

(those only can contact me at:


All the others can avail of the many great people

and great auditors available in the field of earth. 





For the list go to:


Silvia Kusada


Class VI (SHSBC), Class IV C/S and OT 8.

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