Imagine

Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shown a picture of a gathering with hundreds of people.

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Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shewn a picture of a gatherer with hundreds of people. Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine if you were also convinced you were each one of this people individually and every time you were actually observing one of them you would assume their program (mind) and adding another mind to the general one it was given to you when you sat in front the screen.

Imagine yourself, now, leaded to believe you’re those people, trying to make them survive, feeling responsible for their future, for each individual future and well being.

Imagine yourself, not knowing is a projection and not knowing they are all one image, starting fights one against another to protect and support the different minds (program)… in truth fighting yourselves.

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Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape as one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others.

Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape with one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others. But again, you do not know that anymore.

And so, you start focusing in campaigns to save the world, while part of you knows there is not such world and, frustrated and upset, is trying to destroy this screen… the very same world you are trying to save.

Some philosophers say we are one and we are responsible for everybody, we are everywhere while some other say we are a single being. From a mind prospective they both potentially right.

However, outside the “minds”there is no us, me, you or I in this projection.

There is a projection and the only way out, is not to play any part in the movie we see.”

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In truth, if there is ever going to be a truth understandable or even perceivable and by a mind, there is no us, me or I in this projection. There is a projection and the only way out, at least from the “movie”, is not to play any part in the movie.”

Something the human material mind was not built to conceive

“You know part of me still feel married to my last husband?”

“…In true mysticism there is no sacrifice of feeling. Mystical sensations are sensations of the same category as the sensation of love, only infinitely higher and more complex. Love “sex”, these are but a foretaste of mystical sensations. “ Ouspensky: A NEW MODEL OF THE UNIVERSE “Sex and Evolution” ------------

“…In true mysticism there is no sacrifice of feeling. Mystical sensations are sensations of the same category as the sensation of love, only infinitely higher and more complex. Love “sex”, these are but a foretaste of mystical sensations. “
Ouspensky: A NEW MODEL OF THE UNIVERSE “Sex and Evolution”
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“Mystical sensations undoubtedly and incontestably have a taste of sex… Of course all we know in life, only in love is there a taste of the mystical, a taste of ecstasy. Nothing else in our life brings us so near to the limit of human possibilities, beyond which begins the unknown.
The Strange Life of PD Ouspensky by Colin Wilson

“You know part of me still feel married to my last husband?”

“Yes, I know and that’s Ok.” he answered me while caressing my heart with his beautiful smile.

“Part of (me), of this human form, have never left W. and another part is now loving you.” I painfully added.

He holded me tight: “I feel the same about the woman I last loved at times. Even if I love you now with all my heart.”

There was a moment of peace. Truth often gives me that soothing effect.

“How many people can you actually love at the same time?… and that being pure love?” I asked myself. Today, unlikely few years ago I know the answer to be ‘an infinity of people’.

I know love starts on a higher dimension than this rudimental delusional world where pure love degenerates and at times manifests itself through pain.

On the top of it every ‘I’ could project on you an idea of love.

Crazy…

B. is not just someone I deeply love, is a soul mate. I never understood what soul mate really meant until I found him. During our energy circles, with my eyes closed, I could locate every participant, I could see their energy as little condensed sparkles of different colors, motion and intensity… I could recognize people by their energy.

To my surprise, when I looked for B. I couldn’t find it. All I could see it was my energy estended to him… or his energy extended to me? There was no me or he. Our energy was one. Our energy is one. Just like 2 drops of the same substance coming out from a spoon. Identical, separated yet, part of each other.

I do not know what this illusion would do with such a beauty, I have learned truth has no business in this universe but I have also learned two beings can ‘see’ beyond the energy, beyond material perceptions and when they do they are touching each other into the infinity of unconditional love and lose any sense of separateness.

And so, where into this material world you think to love many people, you see all this people be one, be you, Bruce, William, Luca, Rhett, Randy, Aida, B..

You lose your energy form, they all lose theirs and the only thing remaining is the essence of pure love…

Something the human material mind was not built to conceive.

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The invisible low life of the mind’s world.

The invisible low life of the mind’s world.

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A beautiful being, which I’m currently seeing asked me if I would have charged him rent if he moved here?”
My immediate answer was: “The man I have to be a caretaker of, hasn’t being born yet.”
I could not stop thinking of a more stupid answer on my part.
R. is a very giving person and far from being an opportunist
and the fact that I answered in that manner it was making me feel cheap and greedy.
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I spent about a day thinking about it and feeling stupid…
until I started looking all this from a distance and saw the huge red flag highlighting my identification with the program (Silvia Kusada) and the sad self-importance dining with its best friend Mrs self-pity.
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That answer was also showing the degree of protest my mechanical-self still sitting on about my ex-husband W. taking avidly from me all I had and I did not have, leaving me drained of both material means and spiritual energy.

At night, unhappy with myself I sat on the couch and seeking help by browsing into my spiritual books… I found my answer when I went through the first few pages of a book by Swami Vivekananda.

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“I do not want to get material life, do not want the sense-life, but something higher.”
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“Comfort is no test of truth; on the contrary, truth is often far from being “comfortable.”
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“After every happiness comes misery; they may be far apart or near. The more advanced the soul, the more quickly does one follow the other.
What we want is neither happiness nor misery.
Both make us forget our true nature; both are chains – one iron, one gold; behind both is the Atman, who knows neither happiness nor misery. These are states, and states must ever change; but the nature of the Atman is bliss, peace, unchanging.
We have not to get it, we have it; only wash away the dross and see it.
“Always discriminate-your body, your house, the people and the world are all absolutely unreal like a dream.
Always think that the body is only an inert instrument.
And the Atman within is your real nature.”
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“In religion, as in all other matters, discard everything that weakens you, have nothing to do with it.”
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“Whatever is weak avoid! It is death. If it is strength, go down into hell and get hold of it! There is salvation only for the brave.”
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“Bless the people when they revile you.
Think how much good they are doing by helping to stamp out the false ego. Hold fast to the real Self.
Think only pure thoughts, and you will accomplish more than a regiment of mere preachers.
Out of purity and silence comes the world of power.”
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“Blows are what awaken us and help to break the dream.
They show us the insufficiency of this world and make us long to escape, to have freedom.”
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“Both forces of good and evil will keep the universe alive for us, until we awake from our dreams and give up this building of mud pies.”
Swami Vivekananda.
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… After going through few paragraphs I felt a great sense of relief.
I realized I was so unknowingly getting into “life” I was forgetting the beauty of freedom from matter and energy. The beauty of not interfering with the plot, of not getting involved with the Matrix.
I looked at my land; “The Spiritual Center” and saw the burden of owing it and the beauty of offering it and letting it go, where it belong… to the Matrix.
Losing everything in my last marriage made me so greedy?
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At this last thought I stopped.
How anyone can possibly deplete you from your energy when you are not made of energy at all?
William did not take anything from me. He is asleep, and as all the people asleep works only on the level of stimulus-response of the energy world.
He could not ever touch me, but only in appearance interfere with the false I, as represented by the “Silvia Kusada”.
Another identification with the Matrix and the world of energy disguised under spiritual matters came into view.
If you really on the path, while you self-remember, there is nothing in this dimension, in this illusion or dream that can interfere with you.
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So, I wanted to offer this experience with you, as the deceiving minds can do miracle in order to bring you back to identify,
bringing you back into the illusion this prison is a beautiful and fun place to learn from…
I wanted to remind myself and who is seriously seeking truth
that by playing a spiritual ‘game’ instead of losing your mind(s),
you can loose yourself.
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“I do not want to get material life, do not want the sense-life, but something higher.”
Swami Vivekananda.
'Ram Dass' Quote

‘Ram Dass’ Quote

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