The 2 basic programs of this illusion; visual vs HTML

When we enter/are placed in this illusion we are given a mind, many minds in truth, and right there we are faced with our first choice:  going visual or continue to use the HTML (energy-coding vision)?

The very majority of us settles for visual vision offered by the mind(s) with its pictures, interpretations, taste, colors, and all the senses and emotions programmed to delineate and consolidate what we end up believing is us.


The dramatic feeling of been totally lost, is then partially relieved by the sensation of gaining a position in space which gives us some sort of delusional security.

The majority of people spend their whole life creating effects on others in the attempt of proving to themselves they are “alive”, they really “exist”.

I, too, choose the Vision-mode. Thought, for a while, Silvia was me. Struggled to fit in and, too, I was tricked, as the majority of fictitious, materialistic groups disguised as spiritual does, into believing being causative is equal to power.

Fortunately,  I always aimed toward truth, never really cared about power, about competing or challenging others… and I say fortunately, because your true intent is what guides you and lays the stones to your path.

I have always been quite perceptive, but it wasn’t of any help when dealing with psychopaths or psychotic organizations. They have a way to present themselves so as to match your perceptions and ideals. It is all a pretense, an exterior outfit but never the less good enough to cloud ones judgment.

It was only recently with regaining the ability to read energy (the HTML program), I realized what we see with the body eyes, what the mind offers us, is most of the time very different from what it truly is.

When you read a code you can see all the components, the element which constitute the appearance and the one who are prompting its action. A beautiful flower seen by the mind as such, will reveal its poisoning properties to whom is able to read its energy and codes.

I started to work on this. I was puzzled to see how, quite often, the beautiful, genuine smile, convincing words of someone, would ‘read’ on its energy formation as untrustworthy.

So many times I battled with the mind(s) “it cannot be possible” but at last, I became strong enough, to trust my new mode of vision.

The other day, reading a post by David St Lawrence, a man who I admire deeply for his constant help, on effectively enabling people to advance spiritually in freedom, I realized… ‘seeing’ is not something you develop with time but is something we have all along, something we surrender when we choose to let the mind “see” for us.

At the very moment we choose the body eyes as the primary-eyes, our
spiritual sight disappears in the background like a foggy undefined

When I read the energy is always spot on.
Again, where the ‘eyes’ of the mind see a beautiful person, event or
situation and the spiritual mind reading the energy, says exactly the opposite. I know the latter is the one to trust.

We entered a different plateau. Let’s keep in mind that, when you read a code, there can be a very early command which changes all the rest of the code and although the spiritual mind is way more accurate, by belonging to the material universe is still affected by its rules, lies and imperfection.

On the positive side, the reading of energy will give you a much broader vision, unlabeled, of the different flows. Please do realize that a this point there is no roads, mother, cat, sea, sky or any form as we have left the visual-mode.

All you see at this stage is the energy moving; no labels or judgments. And, if you make it close enough to the no-judgment, no-labeling zone, you have also gained a detachment from the mind and you are somewhat exterior to the whole material game of illusion with its duality.

As per the first graph below created and designed by David St Lawrence, the familiarization with the Spiritual world is a VERY necessary step. Only when it became a way of life, to you, to perceive and deal with other inorganic beings, your next door will unlock.

NOTE: All Inorganic beings, spirits, ghosts of a less dense, but still material (energy) form and the mind(s) itself belong to the game of illusion ordinarily called Reality.


Original Graph by David St Lawrence (above)


I modified the original graph by David St Lawrence to add another field and notes.

David St Lawrence Silvia version


For who of you is ready to make the necessary arrangements and to take the necessary steps to enter the spiritual world, I strongly advise to contact David St Lawrence…

He can give you the tools, to get to the door of Awareness.

Of course, there is no place for dilettantism, you are required to work hard and to bring out all the courage you can possibly can… You are the only one who can walk the path.

I think is worth it.




The business of lying…

The business of lying…


“Therefore be “unattached”; let things work; let brain centers work; work incessantly, but let not a ripple conquer the mind. Work as if you were a stranger in this land, a sojourner; work incessantly, but do not bind yourselves; bondage is terrible. The world is not our habitation, it is only one of the many stages through which we are passing” Swami Vivikananda

I have been told many times from my teachers my problem was I did not like myself, myself being to them my illusionary image in  this illusionary world; Silvia Kusada.

It never felt right while at the same time it was true.

But as for any partial truth, that piece of information halted me.

I always felt trapped by the fact I was recognized and identified with a piece of energy. I had been fighting this ‘Silvia Kusada’, trying to change her or make her disappear. That has been wrong too. As a spectator of a play. It is both wrong to fall into the delusion you can help improving a character or to try to destroy it. It is both ways an identification with a lie.

Today when I look back I see that if my cohorts approach would have been toward me being able to detach from the illusion of an identity/ies, (Note, detachment has no business in any creation or destruction), I would have recognized in that a meaningful step on my path.

The stage where billions of billions of movies are projected, crossing and overlapping is an endless playground.


“The stage where billions of billions of movies are projected, crossing and overlapping is an endless playground.”

Detachment, self remembering has many layers, but none of them are useful until they reach the level of the higher spiritual mind, the one outside the duality and energy form.

A data is of no use, until is understood. Still at that point is of no use until it becomes true for you, and again it is of no use till you able to own it.


These are all steps.

A movie or a play is emotionless, unless we put there emotions to be felt.

And so it is by our self-deception, weakness and delusion that we laugh and cry. We look at the beautiful nature, at life achievements, and we feel happy. But once you know the truth, there is no happiness. Happiness in this illusion is regarded in higher planes as suffering and limitation.



” To this level suicide would be to stay. To forget or compromise their freedom and knowingness of truth.”

And so once your eyes are open the only way to continue to be ‘human’ or spiritually ‘human’ is to lie to yourself.

The strong black energy surrounding this Silvia Kusada’s program has nearly deformed and destroyed her; what the rational mind calls heavy depression is nothing but an awareness of lies. A form of transformation which destroys a non-functioning or deteriorating program. It is the wind of a new illusion slowly supplanting an old weak one.

Depression is just an appearance, as death.

What is suicide? An unaware method to abandon the ‘story’ while you believe your place still on the stage.

Yet, many higher ‘enlighted’ have left the stage, knowing they never had to be there in the first place. They stop creating it and giving it the soundtrack of emotions, the stopped to listening to the sounds.

 To such levels of awareness suicide would be to stay. To forget or compromise their freedom and knowingness of truth.

Again, my aim is not to achieve material happiness or to stop suffering… It is truth and truth only at its higher levels.

WHAT IS YOGA? page 259



“The chief principle of Karma-Yoga is non-attachment. A man who follows the methods of Karma-Yoga must practise non-attachment always and in everything, whether to good or to evil, to pleasure or to pain. Non-attachment does not mean indifference. It is a certain kind of separation of self from what happens or from “what a man is doing. It is not coldness, nor is it the desire to shut oneself off from life. It is the recognition and the constant realisation that everything is done according to certain laws and that everything in the world has its own fate.”


KARMA-YOGA teaches right living. Karma-Yoga is the Yoga of activity.

Karma-Yoga teaches the right relation towards people and the right action in the ordinary circumstances of life. Karma-Yoga teaches how to become a Yogi in life without going into the desert or entering a school of Yogis. Karma-Yoga is a necessary supplement to all other Yogas ; only with the help of Karma -Yoga can a man always remember his aim and never lose sight of it. Without Karma-Yoga all other Yogas either give no results or degenerate into something opposite to themselves.

Raja-Yoga and Hatha-Yoga degenerate into a search for external miracles, for the mysterious, for the terrible, that is, into pseudo-occultism. Bhakti-Yoga degenerates into pseudo-mysticism, into superstition, into a personal adoration or into a striving for personal salvation. Jnana-Yoga degenerates into scholasticism or at best into metaphysics.

Karma-Yoga is always connected with the aim of inner development, of inner improvement.

It helps man not to fall asleep inwardly amidst the entangling influences of life, especially in the midst of the hypnotizing influence of activity.

It makes him remember that nothing external has any significance, that everything must be done without caring about results.

Without Karma-Yoga man becomes absorbed in the nearest, the visible, aims and forgets the chief aim.

Karma-Yoga teaches man to change his fate, to direct it at will.

According to the fundamental idea of Karma-Yoga this is attained only by altering the inner attitude of man towards things and towards his own actions.

The same action can be performed differently, one and the same event can be lived through differently. And if a man alters his attitude towards what happens to him, this will in the course of time inevitably change the character of the events which he encounters on his way.

Karma-Yoga teaches man to understand that when it seems to him that he himself is acting, in reality it is not he who acts, but only a power passing through him. Karma-Yoga asserts that a man is not at all what he thinks himself to be, and teaches man to understand that only in very rare cases does he act of himself and independently, and that in most cases he acts only as a part of one or another great whole. This is the “ occult ” side of Karma-Yoga, the teaching concerning the forces and laws which govern man.

A man who understands the ideas of Karma-Yoga feels all the time that he is but a tiny screw or a tiny wheel in the big machine, and that the success or un-success of what he thinks he is doing depends very little on his own actions.

Acting and feeling in this way, a man can never meet with failure in anything, because the greatest failure, the greatest unsuccess, may further success in his inner work, in his struggle with himself, if he only finds the right attitude towards this unsuccess.

A life governed by the principles of Karma-Yoga differs greatly from an ordinary life.

In ordinary life, no  matter what the conditions may be, the chief aim of man consists in avoiding all unpleasantness, difficulties and discomforts, so far as this is possible.

In a life governed by the principles of Karma-Yoga, a man does not seek to avoid unpleasantnesses or discomforts. On the contrary, he welcomes them, for they afford him a chance of overcoming them.

From the point of view of Karma-Yoga, if life offered no difficulties it would be necessary to create them artificially. And therefore the difficulties which are met with in life are regarded not as something unpleasant which one must try to avoid, but as very useful conditions for the aims of inner work and inner development.

When a man realises this and feels it constantly, life itself becomes his teacher.

The chief principle of Karma-Yoga is non-attachment. A man who follows the methods of Karma-Yoga must practise non-attachment always and in everything, whether to good or to evil, to pleasure or to pain. Non-attachment does not mean indifference.

It is a certain kind of separation of self from what happens or from “what a man is doing. It is not coldness, nor is it the desire to shut oneself off from life. It is the recognition and the constant realisation that everything is done according to certain laws and that everything in the world has its own fate.

From an ordinary point of view the following of the principles of Karma-Yoga appears as fatalism. But it is not fatalism in the sense of the accepting of the exact and unalterable preordination of everything without the possibility of any change whatever. On the contrary, Karma—Yoga teaches how to change the karma–how to influence the karma. But from the point of view of Karma Yoga this influencing is an entirely inner process. Karma-Yoga teaches that a man may change the people and events around him by changing his attitude towards them.

The idea of this is very clear. Every man from his birth is surrounded by a certain karma, by certain people and certain events.

And in accordance with his nature, education, tastes and habits he adopts a certain definite attitude towards things, people and events.

So long as his attitude remains unchanged, people, things and events also remain unchanged, that is, corresponding to his karma. If he is not satisfied with his karma, if he wants something new and unknown he must change his attitude towards what he has and then the new events will come.

Karma-Yoga is the only way possible for people who are tied to life, who are unable to free themselves from the external forms of life, for people who either through their birth or through their own powers and capacities are placed at the head of human communities or groups, for people who are connected with the progress of the life of humanity, for historical personages, for people whose personal life seems to be the expression of the life of an epoch or a nation. These people cannot change themselves visibly; they can change themselves only internally, while externally remaining the same as before, saying the same things, doing the same things, but without attachment, as actors on the stage. Having become such actors in relation to their life, they become Yogi; in the midst of the most varied and intense activity. There can be peace in their soul whatever their troubles may be. Their thought can work without hindrance, independently of anything that may surround it.

Karma-Yoga gives freedom to the prisoner in a gaol and to the king on a throne, if only they can feel that they are actors playing their roles.


DEFINITION of POWER; how education is used to enslave.


 “How education is used to enslave.”


“EGO is the only dangerous enemy we have.” Be aware of anyone who promises you to make you feel like a God or who can turn you into a God. A true God never think to be one. Does not need to feel like one either. He just is.


 I want to share with you part of a conversation I recently had with couple of people. They both have a $cientology background and therefore have been indoctrinated to move toward solidity in the name of freedom and transparency.
As in many abusive controlling groups, in $cientology, training and knowledge have been altered and used to the advantage of the ‘enslaver’, very often called ‘The saviour’.
NOTE: This is an advanced spiritual blog. It needs to be read with a spiritual mind. Your analytical mind will find no wrong with deceiving programs, as they do guarantee (in your individualization/ego) its survival.
 Q. Mr. Hubbard defined power as ‘being able to hold a position in space’.
A: There is no true ‘power’ you can gain in this universe. Holding on to a “material” position (even if out of a body) and getting enmeshed into the trap, are the same thing. You have to go beyond the human concept of being/not-being to be able to get even a faint idea of spiritual freedom.
Q. What I am referring to, is not a MEST (physical) position, but being able to make the original postulates (original intention) stick and not succumb.
 A. Anything a rational mind can formulate is a lie…. the spiritual mind being superior to the game cannot be comprehended by a rational mind.
At one point you have to let go of this game and your awareness will guide you. But the rational mind would not-know, will be unaware of anything about it, although will continuously bug you, with worrisome evaluations and questions.

Q2. All I really wanted from the “church” was to go exterior anytime I wanted. So many people who left the “church” claim it was a scam and not to waste your time or money. What do you think? can you go exterior at will? if yes, at what point did that happen for you?
A. I fortunately went past $cientology and the independent Scientologists (though I admire several of them).

Scientology as many other groups with the pretence to be spiritual, answers the selfish desire of the most to feel safe. It does not take you anywhere.
What it is to be exterior to you? and Why do you want to be exterior? Are you aware of the fact that the exterior with all perception is, still, a material condition?

If that is where you aiming to, nor the church of $cientology or I, can help you. $cientology cannot help you because makes people more solid, and I cannot help you because I work with people who wish to wake up to the illusion of the material universe, not who wish to satisfy its illusion of power and freedom while remaining asleep.
I can only advise you to never stop wishing for what you want and never stop walking toward your dream no matter how slow you go.
Q2. I agree with you that the “church” makes people more solid and not allow a person to look or think for one self. How is it that to be exterior is a material condition? I wanted to go exterior, to fly and be as a bird. how great that would be and not feel trapped to a body with all its pain and discomforts.
A. Every single spiritual advanced philosophy will tell you this world is an illusion. You can have a less solid body (spirit) but you will be subjected by the material/energy laws the same…. The pain is on a different level.

I do not audit to get you more comfortable in this prison. I only audit who is ready to get out. However there are many fantastic auditor who are happy to do that for you.
Q2. I would like to get out of the material universe.  But I have difficulty studying.
A. This is a pretty messed-up universe, and so the beings trapped in it. They do not even know they are asleep. LRH created several rundown to wake up the Thetan (spirit), but he did not succeed. Only very few can handled the horror of what is really happening.

I have experienced on my skin lots of suppression, not only for the Church of $cientology, but also from certain independents, and other Self oriented, status-seeking people. Are called psychopaths, these being people and/or organizations.
My wish to you is for you to start your path. If you cannot study, start taking Yoga, not the one people use as a trendy activity… the one which relaxes your mind and body. It works… and do read one line a day of a spiritual oriented book of your choice.  I have an amazing friend class 8 who can help you, at least for the beginning, so you regain some spiritual strength.
The question is, are you really intentioned to get audited, can you afford some auditing? If not, are you willing to start yourself by yourself, this till you can exchange someone for their help?

Q2Did you get rid of the body thetans (spirits) as an OT8? Do you truly believe that other thetans are attached to us who are barely aware? This is of course very hard for any one to believe. I heard that some OT’s have gone mad or committed suicide trying to rid their body of these body thetans. Just wondered…    I truly don’t know what to believe any more. I know the universe is fucked up with all its wars and aberrations. Can I ask you.. how do you feel about Ron now that you left the organization? Did you go online and find out more about Ron, who he was , ect.. I just don’t know what I trust any more… I don’t have money at this time for auditing but I’m guessing it is not as costly as what the Organization charges? The other thing I don’t understand is when people have attested to a state of “Clear” in the past  on the e-meter, years later and now the Org is trying to say people are not “Clear” and need to go back and re-do services … if the E-meter says a person is Clear then how could they (the ORG) miss it??
There’s just so much confusion on this for me. I’d like to think there is a higher spiritual place to arrive at but when ever I’ve had a “win” it was only short-lived and not lasting.
A. LRH was a genius, he did not invent anything. He studied and compiled Scientology from many books. He was brilliant.

The bridge as he created it, is wonderful. But seldom awakes a sleeping being. And so he had many problems. He violated his own knowingness and rules, and he degraded.
You cannot make one thing of the spiritual and rational mind. They belong to two different worlds.
LRH spiritual mind was ‘awakening’, his rational mind was very sick. He lied, cheated, betrayed the very people who should have trusted and loved, and did choose the wrong people as his friends. He turned his own technology into an implant machine.
Take from him what is needed to advance with your “puzzle” (path) and move on. There are no OTs in $cientology. BT (Body Thetans) and Cluster are going to be around always, they are particle of energy.
You suppose to be able to see them and move on, not getting stuck on being their “controller”
EGO is the only dangerous enemy we have.
Do you want to go somewhere? Your self-importance, valences, ego has to go. In the silence you perceive truth.
It is a lot of work to get there and it is personal work.
If you do not make it, there is only person you can blame; YOURSELF.
Jiddu Krishnamurti 
Meditation is one of the greatest arts in life, perhaps the greatest, and one cannot possibly learn it from anybody. That is the beauty of it. It has no technique and therefore no authority. When you learn about yourself, watch yourself, watch the way you walk, how you eat, what you say, the gossip, the hate, the jealousy, if you are aware of all that in yourself, without any choice, that is part of meditation.So meditation can take place when you are sitting in a bus or walking in the woods full of light and shadows, or listening to the singing of birds or looking at the face of your wife or child.
Jiddu Krishnamurti, Freedom from the Known,116

“At one point you have to let go of this game and your awareness will guide you. But the rational mind would not-know, will be unaware of anything about it, although will continuously bug you, with worrisome evaluations and questions. “

‘The Sufis way’ 
By Idries Shah
 “Sufi mysticism differs tremendously from other cults claiming to be mystical. Formal religion is for the Sufi merely a shell, though a genuine one, which fulfills a function.
When the human consciousness has penetrated beyond this social framework, the Sufi understands the real meaning of religion.
The mystics of other persuasions do not think in this manner at all.
They may transcend outer religious forms, but they do not emphasize the fact that outer religion is only a prelude to special experience.
Most ecstasis remain attached to a rapturous symbolization of some concept derived from their religion.
The Sufi uses religion and psychology to pass beyond all this. Having done so, he “returns to the world,” to guide others on the way.






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