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In a universe where everything flows, where complete stillness or silence is not allowed, we are indoctrinated and led to believe we are the cause beyond this apparent motion.
There is a truth behind every lie, but we are going to cover this point in another article.
By agreeing we are at cause or we can be cause in this illusion, we believe we can change the narrative or representation of the energy and its motion. (Delusion of power)
With that we get to another lower set of agreements: the expectations of a result deriving from particles in motion.
As our awareness decreases we give into another even lower set of agreements; every particle in motion caused by us or others (yes right!) brings about an involuntary and natural desire of expectations, conclusion or results.
Once you are convinced your actions or no-actions, someone else’s actions or non-actions brings about a change/result, you are pretty much done for it. In a few words, you are dead to the real world (we lose the awareness of who we really are).
‘Expectations’ is what prevents you from looking. ‘Expectation’ is like a powerful anchor which keeps you into a little but efficient trap of cause and effect, when in truth you are very much above all that.
Now, you think you have a problem and so you make an appointment with a counselor, or you plan for an action or non-action to solve that problem. You look at the problem; actually you are not looking at the problem at all.
You feel uncomfortable about something and instantly wish to get rid of that emotion (an expectation arises.) At the very instant the expectation comes to life the thing, situation or emotion becomes a problem.
And ‘the problem’ persists only because, projecting yourself into the future or another reality (Solution: a future rearrangement of past situation or data), you have left the present time. And so you expect to fuck someone to forget about someone else, or to do something to prove someone wrong, or to change a job to be able to afford your new house.
And nothing works, because all this is nothing more than a lie.
As sticky paper entraps flies, so lies entrap souls. That is the reason the new job does not fix your feeling of emptiness, sleeping with someone else does not heal your pain or the gallon of ice cream does not bring back peace. They are just more lies over lies.
The first lie is to believe everything in this dream is real; the second one is to believe you can actually cause an effect, when the only effect you can really cause is waking up to the dream and to regain awareness of your original infinite state.
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Expectations; If I only discover why this is it, everything, my pain, my anxiety, my feeling blue or depressed will disappear.
We forget this is only a dream of the many thousands, an intersection of dreams, colored by impressions, and stimulated by unknown factors. The reason we love Charlie is not because we have known him before. That is only one answer of the millions.
We do not heal our cancer by taking pills or discovering it was caused by the betrayal of our wife. Again, that is only one factor over a million. First of all, the energy flows where it needs to flow. The plot, the story or the program is already written.
The code has been programmed long before you fall asleep. Perhaps we can color this illusion with our fears, but the story is already made.
And so, that is the reason you are still obsessed with Charlie after discovering your obsession and pain with Charlie was due to the fact that he killed you or you killed him a few lifetimes ago.
I cannot let him go because we were lovers many lifetimes ago… and you are still obsessed.
You, with your reasoning and finding whys are just adding more and more lies. You are saying that the above is the reason, this hoping your obsession dissolves or that Charlie, owning up to your “soulmates story”, comes back to you.
No. It doesn’t work that way. And, one day, like me you are laying down next to this person to suddenly realize he is not even the being you thought he was. Yes, he was a ‘son’ to someone else, a lover to another and to you just a reminder of that someone you love beyond this dream.
Few moments later, being back into present time, sitting amongst the audience (non-ordinary reality) and not in the middle of the stage (dream-illusion) as you were before, you realize you expected love from a surrogate of ‘Charlie’, when the real Charlie(being) was desperately trying to get you to go back to the audience, next to him where you belonged. In the dream (stage) ‘Charlie’ was not responsive, while in reality the non-responsive was you.
Somehow, you heard this little ‘voice’ in your heart saying: “The dream does not allow me to contact you, but I’m here. That body laying with you is not me….. It is programmed that way. Get off the stage!!”
Suddenly, peace. Pain, anxiety, and any mis-emotions are all little bells trying to tell you, somewhere or somehow, you are living a lie, or two or a millions.
No need to point fingers, because all it goes back to us and our ability to see beyond the dream. For anyone familiar with $cientology, there is only Flow-0: things we do to ourselves. All the rest of the Flows* are just gradients to own up to F-0.
* (F-1: something someone has done to you, F-2: Something you have done to others, F3: Something others have done to others).
As always, lies are glue to a soul.
It wasn’t Charlie lying to me as I thought, it was me lying to myself, looking at someone who wasn’t even there and telling myself he did not love me or talk to me while, down into the audience, he was the one desperately trying to communicate.
I was the one not listening.
I was the one asleep.
And today I feel freer.
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My house and its basement are filled with water.
This is the condition of most souls in the Maya.
But, today, another cup of water was poured out the window, and that is what is important to me even if the mind continues to insist she sees no difference as the house seems as full as before.
The mind, after all, is the only enemy we have, if we ever have one. Always trying to get us to fall down the rabbit hole into the traps of expectations.
Always working to get us to forget who we really are.
Silvia Kusada
SilviaKusada@gmail.com
March 22, 2022
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