The 2 basic programs of this illusion; visual vs HTML

When we enter/are placed in this illusion we are given a mind, many minds in truth, and right there we are faced with our first choice:  going visual or continue to use the HTML (energy-coding vision)?

The very majority of us settles for visual vision offered by the mind(s) with its pictures, interpretations, taste, colors, and all the senses and emotions programmed to delineate and consolidate what we end up believing is us.


The dramatic feeling of been totally lost, is then partially relieved by the sensation of gaining a position in space which gives us some sort of delusional security.

The majority of people spend their whole life creating effects on others in the attempt of proving to themselves they are “alive”, they really “exist”.

I, too, choose the Vision-mode. Thought, for a while, Silvia was me. Struggled to fit in and, too, I was tricked, as the majority of fictitious, materialistic groups disguised as spiritual does, into believing being causative is equal to power.

Fortunately,  I always aimed toward truth, never really cared about power, about competing or challenging others… and I say fortunately, because your true intent is what guides you and lays the stones to your path.

I have always been quite perceptive, but it wasn’t of any help when dealing with psychopaths or psychotic organizations. They have a way to present themselves so as to match your perceptions and ideals. It is all a pretense, an exterior outfit but never the less good enough to cloud ones judgment.

It was only recently with regaining the ability to read energy (the HTML program), I realized what we see with the body eyes, what the mind offers us, is most of the time very different from what it truly is.

When you read a code you can see all the components, the element which constitute the appearance and the one who are prompting its action. A beautiful flower seen by the mind as such, will reveal its poisoning properties to whom is able to read its energy and codes.

I started to work on this. I was puzzled to see how, quite often, the beautiful, genuine smile, convincing words of someone, would ‘read’ on its energy formation as untrustworthy.

So many times I battled with the mind(s) “it cannot be possible” but at last, I became strong enough, to trust my new mode of vision.

The other day, reading a post by David St Lawrence, a man who I admire deeply for his constant help, on effectively enabling people to advance spiritually in freedom, I realized… ‘seeing’ is not something you develop with time but is something we have all along, something we surrender when we choose to let the mind “see” for us.

At the very moment we choose the body eyes as the primary-eyes, our
spiritual sight disappears in the background like a foggy undefined

When I read the energy is always spot on.
Again, where the ‘eyes’ of the mind see a beautiful person, event or
situation and the spiritual mind reading the energy, says exactly the opposite. I know the latter is the one to trust.

We entered a different plateau. Let’s keep in mind that, when you read a code, there can be a very early command which changes all the rest of the code and although the spiritual mind is way more accurate, by belonging to the material universe is still affected by its rules, lies and imperfection.

On the positive side, the reading of energy will give you a much broader vision, unlabeled, of the different flows. Please do realize that a this point there is no roads, mother, cat, sea, sky or any form as we have left the visual-mode.

All you see at this stage is the energy moving; no labels or judgments. And, if you make it close enough to the no-judgment, no-labeling zone, you have also gained a detachment from the mind and you are somewhat exterior to the whole material game of illusion with its duality.

As per the first graph below created and designed by David St Lawrence, the familiarization with the Spiritual world is a VERY necessary step. Only when it became a way of life, to you, to perceive and deal with other inorganic beings, your next door will unlock.

NOTE: All Inorganic beings, spirits, ghosts of a less dense, but still material (energy) form and the mind(s) itself belong to the game of illusion ordinarily called Reality.


Original Graph by David St Lawrence (above)


I modified the original graph by David St Lawrence to add another field and notes.

David St Lawrence Silvia version


For who of you is ready to make the necessary arrangements and to take the necessary steps to enter the spiritual world, I strongly advise to contact David St Lawrence…

He can give you the tools, to get to the door of Awareness.

Of course, there is no place for dilettantism, you are required to work hard and to bring out all the courage you can possibly can… You are the only one who can walk the path.

I think is worth it.




What is $cientology?


$cientology;  a financial institution, which makes billions

promising people to turn them into butterflies

while making sure they remain caterpillars.



most pretended spiritual groups do the exact same things.

You want to be free? Stay free.

You cannot buy wisdom, enlightenment and spiritual freedom.

You have to work for it, every day, every hour, every minute.


Spirituality is not a search,

is a way of life.



The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.


The BS reasons

The BS reasons


After dedicating a life to the search of truth, after having found out there is no truth in the game of life; in the matrix. I also became aware the greatest crime, is not to God. God, the Supreme infinite being, is too strong to care. The greatest crime is hurting another living being. It is to add pain to the already existing suffering and turmoil of any soul trapped in this illusion.

I looked back  into every contact I had with other souls. I finally found this old boyfriend I was told suffered for quite a while our break up and reached out to let him know I was sorry for that pain, I really wanted him to know I cared.

The interesting thing is that the mind, a contrivance specialize in building up ego and fomenting wars, started feeding me a bunch of memories/reasons for me to make this guy wrong. It suggested I let him know that he never stood up for me, he never was there for me in the first place and a bunch of other nonsense.

I had to detach from the whole situation and remind myself the reason I was contacting him, and that reason being to set him free,  free from any past mis-emotion.

And yet, on a higher level here I was again playing the game of life, a dream, an illusion as if it was real.

Lately I catch myself in this long interesting paths that lead nowhere… and at the end, brings me back again to the the lie I find to be the closest to truth. The best way to “live live” is from the audience chair where we really are, and not in the character we believe to be.

We are not on stage. As J. Krishnamurti said “we are the witnesses not the doers”.




















heavenly lies

At one point I came to realize pain and suffering cannot be erased.


Although is a common and natural impulse for a parent to want their offspring to have a happy life, “to be happy” it is also a delusional and backfiring goal/expectation to imprint on others as it dooms them to continuous disappointments and struggles. It sets them on a war against anything considered less than a mark of success.

At the same times we are also told we have to be patient with things or people who are hurting us, which is an absolute lie. There is no reason whatsoever why you should allow someone to hurt you, not reasons to stay, or lessons to be gained from it.

If you get hit by what acts as a bad energy to your system, just move away.

Do not fight it.

Do not try to be right or wrong, do not label that energy or figure-figure on what the mind is telling you about it. If you recognize that energy as  destructive DO NOT ENGAGE with it, just smoothly move away.


I have no patience for greedy, selfish people and more than that, at this point in my life, I cannot afford to allow parasites of energy around me.
It took me years of counseling (not Scientology. Contrary to what the Church of $cientology teaches you, there is actually good counseling outside Scientology) to finally understand the importance of setting your boundaries. And the first one to set your boundaries with, is your own mind.
The very mind which tells you to engage into fights, to justify others abusing you, to be loyally passive to destructive actions.
Set boundaries to the mind which justify suffering or hurting other to protect yourself, which prompt you to engage in a war… which prompts you to compromise with what you really know to be a vampire of energy disgused as person, group or a situation.
I might have told you before, my view of life is very close to the one illustrated in the Matrix, and in the movie Inception.
Having that view, I know there is very little in this “dream/prison” which counts, yet although asleep, beyond the illusion of installed identities there is consciousness.
A conscious being which is constantly violated and for that, I believe, the only valuable thing we can do for others  (where awakening is not possible) is to alleviate in any possible way or opportunity, that inner pain common to all of us.


Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shown a picture of a gathering with hundreds of people.


Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shewn a picture of a gatherer with hundreds of people. Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine if you were also convinced you were each one of this people individually and every time you were actually observing one of them you would assume their program (mind) and adding another mind to the general one it was given to you when you sat in front the screen.

Imagine yourself, now, leaded to believe you’re those people, trying to make them survive, feeling responsible for their future, for each individual future and well being.

Imagine yourself, not knowing is a projection and not knowing they are all one image, starting fights one against another to protect and support the different minds (program)… in truth fighting yourselves.


Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape as one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others.

Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape with one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others. But again, you do not know that anymore.

And so, you start focusing in campaigns to save the world, while part of you knows there is not such world and, frustrated and upset, is trying to destroy this screen… the very same world you are trying to save.

Some philosophers say we are one and we are responsible for everybody, we are everywhere while some other say we are a single being. From a mind prospective they both potentially right.

However, outside the “minds”there is no us, me, you or I in this projection.

There is a projection and the only way out, is not to play any part in the movie we see.”


In truth, if there is ever going to be a truth understandable or even perceivable and by a mind, there is no us, me or I in this projection. There is a projection and the only way out, at least from the “movie”, is not to play any part in the movie.”

PRISON… what type of a seeker are you?

We are not all the same…

given a house, some will turn it into a castle where others into a dumpster.




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