A message from HOME

I want to share something some of you might find interesting, as I have spent many hours listening to the Mind, trying to find reasons why the people I loved the most have left me not without a great deal of intentionally caused sufferings.

Yesterday, I had a chat with my teacher and he told me a story; his story.

“When I was a man, -he told me- I loved many women. I was half awakened and my love was pure and big, I loved with my body and my soul. Yes, I had a ‘mind’ trying to complicate things, but my reality and connection with the non-ordinary world was so strong, the mind could not kill what I knew and what I felt for them.

One after the other, those women, enjoyed the attention, the deep loyalty as they all felt enriched, at first, of something very foreign to this world. They all felt blessed, free, powerful and rejuvenate by the energy of pure love. They felt seen for the first time.

They did not need to be this or that, do or have… they knew I was home to them no matter what and that made them feel strong and invincible.

But with time, they also felt seen in their weakness, and by identifying with them, driven by their ‘mind’, they grew very uncomfortable.

Their solution was to make me more like them, more human so as to feel more comfortable in their position. That it was what their mind (Matrix) was telling them to do and not having enough spiritual power, that it was what they ended up doing.

And so, as they were failing in their attempts to justify their inability to exchange pure love, the ‘mind’ started to create reasons to fund a war. Where, at first, there was a sense of security it grew insecurity, where there was affection grew resentment and where there was loyalty they saw ground for deception.

That very light that at the beginning was giving them strength was now making them feel weak and small. I became their target to which the Matrix threw its best weapons.

They left and went to find someone more human so to feel big, and by mirroring their “shortcomings”, feel safe.

The disloyalty in others, the lack of pure love, the limitations that comes from average interactions, was to them familiar ground. The mutual ruling of their ‘minds’ made it easier for their EGO, as they were not worried any longer about fighting it. The EGO/mind was safely at a place of command.

And so they went back to their human life, feeling a little surprised when they lost the power they thought they now owned. That boost of energy pure love flows disappeared.

In truth, the Power of Love, as it is for Awareness, are something you cannot steal or buy.

You have to be IT in order to own it.

 For me, I, at first experienced a lot of pain, I was in the dark for quite a while, till, and it wasn’t easy to realize, I saw them to be a mirror of my own fears to let completely go of the “dream” called Matrix.

Although I left in them the seed of pure love, which, with time and at their own pace, will guide them to awakening, they were the one helping me, to come back home, in the between dream area where I belong.

 

 

 

 

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…and right in the mist of madness awareness is found.

This morning I was laying in bed looking at the ceiling. I was admiring the beautiful color of the wood. These long beams extending gracefully as if they were limbs of a tree inside the house.

“What a beautiful illusion!” I was thinking, while my eyes got caught by a nod of a very interesting shape, which started to became alive taking the semblance of a bail of hail in the middle of a large field.

I could actually see the energy moving, just as a friend describe it to me a while ago, recounting one of his allucinogeous trips.

You don’t just see the object. It is more like you, at the same time, are looking with different sets of eyes, and every sets gives you a different vision, making it complete, perhaps enabling several universes and dimension to interact and manifest in that instant, as one.

And you, could perhaps be aware of as many universes/dimensions as your limited mind can afford to support.

To abandon the superficial view of things and to dive into their essence has a great liability or an inestimable gift. You become it. You feel what every single cell/particle of energy feel, in their individual life cycle. And so it did happen, while looking at that beautiful ceiling, I heard the crying of the tree, it’s agony. For a moment I was able to look through his eyes, I felt his emotions right there, while he was still alive, breathing amongst his friends in the forest.

I had access to his memories. Suddenly, I was aware of his goals, his dreams. I cried with him, recalling the time he was taken away and his joy and desires cut to pieces.

But, to the mind, it is just a piece of wood, a little decoration. And so a chicken is a just a chicken, salad is just salad and, as any other form of life, seems to have no importance in a world where awareness is submerged, numbed by the narcotic effect of the “Matrix”.

And so, in the psychiatric wards you find people who are energetically “dead” and you also find those which are fully alive, alive to a point where they are now able to see, to talk to every cell, to every particle of energy as you would communicate to a composite being.

You look to a guy talking to a wall or a rock, stuck into a past by long ways gone as it was still there. And beside him you find another guy who “hears” life, the thinking cells full of life of which energy is composed, and to which, as in any other form in this illusion, is given a mind, a purpose, a task, dreams and goals.

And there you find the opposite sides of what we call sanity and madness, genius and dullness, exactly in the same place, where good and evil, right and wrong, truth and lies co-exist. That’s where hyposensitive and hypersensitive are confined by the minds of the ‘average’, ‘normal’ man.

Matrix: Understanding the Empath’s code

 

UNDERSTANDING THE MATRIX HUMAN PROGRAM:

THE CODE OF AN EMPATH

 

“Many of the empath’s who came to me as patients and in my workshops feel overwhelmed, fatigue, and downright exhausted before they learn practical skills to help them cope with their sensitivities. They have often been diagnosed with agoraphobia, chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, migraines, chronic pain, allergies and adrenal fatique (a form of burnout.) On an emotional level, they may experience anxiety, depression, or panic attacks.”  ♦ The empath’s survival guide by Judith Orloff, MD

-IMPORTANT NOTE: Please, do understand, there is no blame or desire of pity in anything written below. That is NOT the point. The intent of this post is purely of analysis and research. REMEMBER, every human form, every valence, race, form has his own code.-

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I believe some of us were born with an ability to perceive beyond what most people perceive.

 

We were called ipersesitives, idealists, emotional. Some of us were punished. Our efforts to set boundaries in order to meet our needs of quiet and peace, were brutally shut.

Only recently as part of my self discovery I researched and found something worth knowing more about.

 

 

The Empath’s Survival Guide by Judith Orloff, MD – My profound gratitude goes to my amazing friend Christine, a friend Empath, for acquaintancing  me with this incredible book.

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I had my share of trouble while growing up. I hated small talks and suffered in environments where superficiality was ruling.

My protection has always been to be funny. Laughing would take me away from my struggles while giving me a sense of protection toward people. In a way, my extreme jokes, would distance boys and definitely people who were busy defending a ‘cool-image’. The people, among which, I would feel most uncomfortable.

Constantly targeted by a mother who couldn’t stand my demands for transparency, demands which were slamming against her constant hiding and manipulating of people around her,  I was, then, easily punished for “being” myself.

Although my empathic abilities were always there, I wasn’t aware of them until one of my psychopath, sadist significant other, in 2008, strangled me forcing me to brutally face the unbearable pain of my feelings.

I knew my mother used to play this trick on us children. While she was the one stirring the frequent beatings from my violent father, she claimed to be the victim of such violence, gaining sympathy from the majority of us children.

Manipulation from your loved one is a hard and confusing thing for an empath to confront, due to the fact you feel sorry for their after-the-fact “guilt “. Guilt/sorrow they want you to experience while they watch you bleed as the result of their own stabbings.

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“Energy vampires with a victim mentality drain empaths with their “The world is against me” attitude. They don’t take responsibility for the problems that happen in their lives. … Empaths often fall into the compassionate caretaker role with “victims,” trying to solve their list of problems.” 
♦ The empath’s survival guide by Judith Orloff, MD

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Surrounded by insanity, deception and superficiality, the life of a young, unaware empath, can turn into a real nightmare. My dreams at young age were the proof of my extreme empathic perceptions. The sadistic behavior of my mother toward me in particularly (the one in the family she knew had the potential to see through her although I was just a little child), caused me frequent nightmares were I was painfully murdered, waking up, often, to a very real unbearable pain. If I had a fear in my childhood, it has always been to be interned in a spin-bin, or tortured by a psychopath. Depression, inexplicable migraines and illnesses where a norm till I remained in the family.

Unfortunately, not knowing about your extreme sensitivity, prompted by the never ending desire of a child to be loved and accepted,  you try to adjust, to change in any way you can, in order to become that “normal” which seems to win their love. Love, which for you, for one reason or another, seems always unavailable.

I now recognize, my early search for truth, my painful childhood was what prompted me to undertake a journey of study on the field of spiritual healing.

Mirroring the pain of mankind, I felt the desire to do something to help others. Healing others meant, unconsciously, to heal myself.

Many empaths solved their “survival problems” by alcohol and drugs abuse. I, instead, found in the sexual activity a way to reach, even if briefly, a deeper connection with another human being.

No matter the pain, I never wished to feel less, I always wanted to feel more.

EMPATHY is a beautiful word meaning the ability to feel the joy or pain of another as it is your own.

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I always considered, while embracing the developing of telepathy and mind-reading, this ability to to be a gift, although, many times, it has been the cause of extreme discomfort.

After being involved in one too many unhealthy romantic partnerships with narcissists and psychopaths, after been told and made feel guilty, many times, for choosing them, as if they were a punishment for my “bad” deeds (?!?), I finally, discovered those people were not  a punishment at all. Narcissists, sociopath, vampires of energy are very well aware, an Empath, is their best choice to project and play their parasite games.

They know how to use your empathic abilities against yourself especially when you have no clue of what they are about..

“Energy vampires are attracted to the openness and loving heart of empaths. Sensitive people need to be prepared for them.”  ♦ The empath’s survival guide by Judith Orloff, MD

I remember the sadists psychopath, even after he strangled me, after he stole my savings leaving me penniless in the street with my child (he was making nearly 200 thousands a year), after ruining my reputation with lies to common friends to safeguard himself from the truth being disclosed; even after that, he expected me to keep him at the center of the universe. “Somebody is ill-advising her, she never refuses to do what I ask her to do. She does anything for me.“,  I remember his voice through the speakerphone while he was complaining to a friend of mine, about me disregarding his unreasonable demands, and reaching for legal advice’s in order to get back my savings.

Although I have been studying for almost 3 decades counselling procedures and received tons of it through my early affiliation with the Church of $cientology, it wasn’t till I separated from the “cult” that I actually made my major spiritual progresses. Year after year, working on the beauty of silence, egolessness, training myself to listen and to see without the use of the physical senses, by researching and studying many different mystics ans spiritual paths, having been blessed with amazing counselors (those which the Church of $cientology warns you against) I achieved clarity and a deeper understanding of what an Empath is.

Being an Empath, at the contrary of what I use to believe, to be a spiritual condition, is just a type of a program of the Matrix, and for what it is worth, when you dealing with the Matrix, or worse, when you mistakenly but quite commonly, identify yourself with it, it is a blessing to know more about it.

I know some of you suffer of depression. Some other have been labelled with mood disorder, or as bipolar. I have known quite a bit of people convinced this to be true while the truth, as I pointed out to them, is they were full-blown Empaths.

Is worth exploring this possibility.

Although true Empaths are not that many, if you are one, your life could greatly change for the better.

 

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COMMENTS YOU MIGHT FIND HELPFUL:

P.B.:

Hi Silvia – I enjoyed reading your essay about empaths, of course the area is real to me. You made it public talking about your past and although you already in the past wrote about your abusive relationship here you display the roots. Indeed for a child being in a dramatizing environment the going gets tough. From then patterns are imprinted and it can be rock and roll from one side to a GPM to another.

 

You write you achieved clarity. I can follow that up in your posts indeed. I’m always curious

On a more pragmatic level – you write the other side of the coin being that sexual activity to bond with another human being, I’m sorry to hear it’s only briefly. The proof being in the pudding, without any erotic connotation – did you after achieving that clarity on the matter as-is it in order to achieve a not brief sexual connection with a real romantic partnership?

I’m only curious, and ask since you made the subject public and thus open

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Silvia K. answer:

Thank you for your writing. The briefly “refers” to the other party. My connection with people has always been intense and going past the material world. But for the average men, (or women for some men) it is only during the climax where he put down his walls. Fear rules most people into protecting their weakness and vulnerable spots.

 

If you’re not sincere yourself, you will be attracted to that kind of a teacher that’s as sincere as you are…

An excerpt from T25: Three Essential Questions Revisited
by Robert Adams Satsangs: The Collected Works

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“Before you got to sleep. Before you got to sleep, before you fall asleep, you ask yourself the third question, which is: “Where did God come from?”

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Ask yourself three times. “Where did God come from? Where did this God come from? That I have believed in all of my life?” And you start to think about your childhood.

“When I was young I was brought up in a religion, whether it’s Catholic, or Protestant or Jewish, or Islam, or Hindu.
I was told to believe in God, but what do I know about God? Have I had an experience of God? Therefore God must be a belief, a concept, a preconceived idea. Where did this God come from?”
Now if you’ve been highly religious in one of the major religions, this is going to be so hard for you to do for you’ll think it’s blasphemous, I therefore ask you to investigate.

To intelligently look within yourself. Asking yourself, “Where did this God that I’ve believed in all my life, come from? And if you investigate deep enough, you will soon see, “I believe in God. I?” When I say, “I,” I’ve been referring to my body. So that means all of these years, my body has believed in God. And I has been the silent witness observing all of this. I has no belief.

I is neutral. It’s my body and my mind, that believe in some anthropomorphicb type of deity. Now I realize I is not the body, I is not the mind and I is not God.
Like the universe, like my body, it’s all a concept, a belief. God must be attached to I, just like everything else. And when I am able to transcend I, I will transcend the mistaken belief of God and become free.
So, Again you go back to “I – I, I – I.” You fall asleep doing this and you will wake up doing this. If you practice this my friends you will be free before you know it. You’ll be totally free and liberated.
I get many phone calls. One of the things I’m frequently asked is how do you tell a real teacher from a phony teacher? I don’t know why people are interested in things like that.

The answer is always the same. If you go within yourself honestly, sincerely and you
become devoted to your Self, you begin to love yourself, not the ego self, but yourself Self, and you really want to awaken, you will be attracted to the right teacher, or the right book, or the right tree, or the right rock.

But if you have many faults and you’re not sincere yourself, you will be attracted to that kind of a teacher that’s as sincere as you are and you’ll both look at each other.

So I hung up the phone Thursday night. Horat gave me…is Horat here?

No. He gave me a book to read. It’s by a woman named Lucy Marr. I knew her at Ramana Ashram.
She’s lived there for many years and I turned to a page and there it was the answer I was talking about. She really explains it in a wonderful way. Therefore if Mary would like to read this, I would be most appreciative.

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Mary: This is titled, Gurus, Siddhas and Sinyasis.
-It is the mind that creates questions and goes in search of answers. It takes some time until it realizes this fact and gives up, but meanwhile it interferes continuously in the natural expansion of the seekers spiritual dimension.

Until then, question after question emerges and Ramana Maharshi stood patiently day by day against the flood. A collection of his replies to stray questions is given in the last chapter, however the three themes mentioned in the heading above may ask for a  treatment in some detail.

There is a wide spread hunting for the guru and a lot of so called gurus make quite a good business out of the distorted ideas about the guru and his function, that are prevalent everywhere.

Who then is a guru?

The satvas say that one must serve a guru for twelve years for getting to self-realization.
What does a guru do? Does he hand it over to the disciple? Is it not the Self always realized? What does the common belief mean then?

The man is always the Self and yet he does not know it. He confounds it with the non-self that is the body etc. Such confusion is due to ignorance. If ignorance be wiped out, the confusion will cease to exist and the true knowledge will be unfolded. By remaining in contact with realized Sages, the man will gradually lose the ignorance, until its removal is complete.

The eternal Self is thus revealed. The disciple surrenders himself to the Master. That means there is no vestige of individuality retained by the disciple. If the surrender is complete all sense of individuality is lost and there is thus no cause for misery. The eternal being is only happiness, that is revealed.

Without understanding it aright, people think that the guru teaches the disciple something like tat-tvam-asi and that the disciple realizes, “I am Brahman.” In their ignorance they conceive of Brahman as something more huge and powerful than anything else.

With a limited I the man is so stuck up and wild. What will be the case if the same I grows up enormous. He will be enormously ignorant and foolish. This false I must perish. Its annihilation is the fruit of guru Ishvara, the service to the guru. Realization is eternal and it is not newly brought about by the guru. He helps in the removal of ignorance, that is all.
The real guru is one who has realized the Self.

But how can we recognize him? He does not talk about himself. He behaves exactly as everybody else, and if he does not there is reason to be cautious.

There is only one quality by which he is reading in his silence, as well as in his talk. If you’re ready for him, he will meet you without any searching for him on your part, and only then can you be assured that he is the guru for you.
Meanwhile you are not without guidance from without. The inner guidance sends signals, as it were, ceaselessly. A certain sentence in a book, a smile on an infant, the beauty of a flower or a sunset. All of them can become the means for a sudden understanding, one of the minor enlightenments which adorn the path of the sincere seeker after truth.

All of them could become his or her guru.
The famous ancient saint said of himself that he had twenty-four gurus including inanimate objects. Even the first quest after the meaning of life is already prompted by the inner, the real guru.

There is a beautiful experience of Moses preserved in the tradition of Islam. When he complained, “Oh Lord, where shall I seek to find thee?” He heard the answer, “Thou wouldest not seek me if thou wouldest not already have found me.”
Who is it, that is in search for the guru? The longing is certainly prompted by the Self as is indicated, also the answer to Moses’ prayer. But it is the personal I that goes out hunting for an outer guru.

You will get exactly the kind of guru that corresponds to the stage of your development.
That usually means a rather low type because a guru of a higher standard is of no use to a disciple of limited understanding. The receiver has to be tuned to the wavelength of the transmitter for receiving and diversity. Thus even if there is a meeting with a realized soul, the guru need not refuse the disciple, because the disciple will not even perceive the presence of greatness, since his inner senses are still clouded.

He will be like a man who went in search for chinasamani, a celestial gem that fulfills every desire. Who found it, and threw it away when he saw a colorful pebble.
Of the worst kind among the many gurus nowadays are those who are deliberately exploiting those hunting for a guru. Their method of catching the trustful ignorant is often a mystifying show of ceremony, incantations, dark hints and even threats of black magic powers with reference to traditions.

Sri Ramana Maharshi said about these: The books say that there are so many kinds of initiations. They also say that the guru makes some rite for him with fire, water, Japa, mantra, nesessa and call such fantastic performances, diksha, initiations. As if the disciple becomes ripe only after such practices have gone through by the guru.

The most potent form of work is silence, however vast and ecstatic the sastras may be, they fail in their effect. The guru is quiet, and peace prevails in all. This silence is more vast and more emphatic than all the sastras put together. But when the faith guru is clever enough, he may even feign this attitude also.

Another type of self styled guru may not only deceive the would be disciple but also himself.
He might have some intellectual knowledge of the truth and will be able to teach the same as far as this limited knowledge goes. The sincere seeker after truth will one fade or another by the silent grace of his inner guidance. Recognize the limitation of the would be guru and leave him perhaps for another one. Or perhaps he has ripened enough in the meantime so that he will now recognize the voice of the inner guru, of the Self and accept it, unreservedly. Or he might follow the way of Dhata Raya and learn to see the guru in all as everything which amounts to practically the same thing.

Now there’s a strange fact that Ramana Maharshi himself refused to be the guru of his
devotees, or to be exact, he never initiated any of them in the traditional way. Some of them are known to have left him, though they loved and worshipped him because they thought themselves unable to proceed spiritually without an outer guru. How is this strange attitude of his to be understood?
Is it strange to shun the responsibility which the guru is expected to take over in respect to his devotee?

According to tradition, a guru who accepts a disciple also takes over his karma, bad as it maybe.

No, Sri Ramana Maharshi was only being consistent. He lived what he taught, “The realization of the one without a second.”
When there is only one Brahman where is the place for guru and disciple?

A guru presupposes a disciple, a disciple a guru, they are invariably two. Can there be two Selves? The one guiding the other? A true guidance is possible only when the Self of the guru and that of the disciple is one and the same Self.
The real function of the guru, the higher and more efficient than his teaching, is his power of contact. Removing the ignorance of the disciple by direct transmission. This of course is possible only when the guru has himself realized the truth.

This power is so real that Ramana Maharshi always gave the greatest importance to satsang.

The contact of highly advanced souls.

Because their purity, wisdom and compassion are contagious, like health and peace.

This is the actual danger of surrender to a wrong guru. That his cunning, vanity and
selfishness are just as contagious. Even the experience of everyday life, shows the danger of people coming to him. Though he usually is taken as an evil example only. But even in that case the bad influence goes deeper. It is immediately contagious, like a disease, may the inner guru protect.

This mysterious land lost in the sea, granting the gift of the supreme truth to those who
find the path into its hidden depths also still keeps many of the secrets of magic techniques and powers called siddhas.

The number of seekers after these secrets will probably out number those who search after truth. So it is widely known that Ramana Maharshi did not appreciate such tendencies, usually connected with yoga sadhana. Now and again he was asked about submission of siddhas within the frame of the search of the Self.

“One!” he declared, “The Self is the most intimate and eternal being, whereas the siddhas are born.” The one requires effort to acquire, the other does not.
The powers of thought by the mind which must be kept alert, whereas the Self is realized when the mind is destroyed. The power is manifest only when there is the ego.

The Self is beyond the ego and is realized after the ego is eliminated.
Where is the use of occult powers for the self-realized being?

Self-realization may be accompanied by occult powers or it may not be. If a person has sought such a power before realization, he may get them after realization.

There are others who have not sort such powers and have attempted only self-realization. They do not manifest.
Among the visitors at this stage was Mr Evan Wendt, the well known Tibetologist. He too
asked for an explanation on the value of occult powers.

Ramana Maharshi replied, “The occult powers are only in the mind. They are not natural in the Self. That which is not natural but acquired cannot be permanent, is not worth striving for. They denote extended powers.

A man is possessed of limited powers and is miserable. He wants to expand his powers so that he may be happy. But consider if it will be so, that with limited perception one is miserable, with extended perception the misery must increase proportionately. Occult powers will not bring happiness to anyone, but will make him all the more miserable.”

Moreover what are these powers for? The would be occultist desires to display the siddhas, so that others may appreciate them.

He seeks the appreciation and if it is not forthcoming he will not be happy. He may even find another possessor of higher powers.

That will cause jealousy, infuriating his unhappiness.

So which is the real power? Is it to increase prosperity? Or bring about peace?
That which results in peace is the highest perfection of siddhi’s.

The root idea in Sri Ramana’s attitude, to the phenomena of ESP or extra sensory perception or siddhas, nowadays as scientifically labelled, is easily discovered. ESP experience belongs to the personal I. The teachings of the Sage of Arunachala revolves around hunting the I until it submits.

To seek and attain siddhas is to strengthen it. That settles the matter once and for all.
Sinyasis was in ancient India, the fourth and last of the Ashrama, the stations of life.

The first of them was represented by the boy, who was sent to live as the gomasharya, with the guru to serve him and be trained in the scriptures.
The second stage was his life as a householder after incurring marriage in which he carried out his duties to those around him and made his contribution to the collective. When his sons were settled and his daughters married he was free to retire. However he was not the idea of retirement to a comfortable life, of enjoying the well earned fruits of a life of work and trial.

The third stage of the Ashrama was a quiet life of renunciation in the woods, in meditation and prayer, in longing for enlightenment.

These first three periods conform to custom and convention but the last one, sinyasi, the total renunciation of what is expected to assert itself at its own time and under its own conditions.

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This fact was behind Ramana Maharshi’s somewhat enigmatic reply to a questioner, to
whether the questioner should embrace sinyasa. If you should, you would not have asked.

The traditional idea about sinyasa is explained in a rather certain yudusta in the bhagavatam book. It is that satvanyasis whole endeavor to be directed toward the discovery of the true Self at the point of contact between deep sleep and the waking state.
He should look upon both bondage and freedom, birth and death as unreal. He should not read profane books or live by any profession, nor indulge in politics, nor take sides in a partisan sphere, nor accept disciples nor do much reading, which would divert his mind from his spiritual practice, nor make speeches, nor undertake any responsible work.

After attaining enlightenment he may continue to behave as before or alter his ways that would suit his demeanor.

To give no sign by which others to recognize his attainment. He retains his usual mode of life or pursuit.
Sri Ramana Maharshi never encouraged people who thought of assuming the formal sinyasi.
Though he hereby seemingly contradicted himself.

When pointed out that he himself had cut all connection with his family life and home, he simply replied that it was a matter of karma. Discussing the subject, he saw the motivation in most cases, it is escapism through disappointment with a weary and unsuccessful life. Almost as often it is a matter of self importance. Being in modest or even poor circumstances, you are nobody.

As a Sinyasi you are somebody, at least in the eyes of some people. There might be a third motive for a minority, impatience. They are not satisfied with the slow rate of their spiritual progress.

All three kinds of motivation and all others as well respond to the prompting of the ego I.

Therefore Ramana Maharshi gave a typical reply, “Why do you think you are a  householder?
If you go out as a sinyasi, these similar thoughts if you are a sinyasi will haunt you?

Whether you continue in a household or renounce, or go to the forest, your mind haunts you.

The ego is the source that bothers you. If you renounce the world, it will only substitute the thoughts you renounced as a householder and the environment that is enforced are those of the householder.
But the mental obstacles are always there. They increase in new surroundings. There is no help in the change of environments.

The obstacle in the mind is in the mind. It must be gotten over, whether at home or in the forest. If you can do it in the forest why not in the home? Therefore why change the environment? Your efforts is to be made in the now, in whatever environment you may be. Environment never abandons you according to your desire. Look at me, I left home. Look at yourselves. You have come here leaving the home environment. What do you find here? Is this different from what you left?”
As an answer to another question he replied, “Sinyasa is to renounce ones individuality.
This is not the same as ?? and ochre robes. A man maybe a householder, yet if he does not think he is a householder, he is a sinyasi.

On the contrary a man may wear ochre robes and wander about. Yet if he thinks he is a sinyasi, he’s not that. To think of sinyasa, he thinks it’s his own ???

Sinyasa is meant for one who is fit. It consists of renunciation, not of material objects but of attachment to them. Sinyasa can be practiced by anyone. Even at home. Only one must be supervised closely.”

It is the silent wisdom of this mysterious land, lost in the sea of the twentieth century.

Just as it was millenniums ago when it was expressed in Manu’s law of sinyasi.

He should not wish to die nor hope to live, but await the time appointed, as the servant awaits his wages.

Will not show anger to one who is angry.

He must bless the man who curses him.

He must not utter falsehood.
Rejoicing in the things of this earth, calm, caring for nothing, abstaining from sensual pleasures.
Himself the only helper, he may live on in the world in the hope of eternal bliss.

Thus sinyasa is neither showy, nor brilliant, nor a very attractive path, but just the one on which truth is likely to meet the wanderer, provided that he is a true sinyasi.”

Robert Adams: ” …But true surrender means that you have to really surrender everything. You have no thoughts of your own. You have no mind of your own. You have no ideas of your own. “Thy will be done, not mine.” It’s hard to do for most people. But if you give up all of your thoughts it is the same as self-inquiry. Therefore total surrender means, giving up your personal sense of I.

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The conditions of life by LRH: a promise of success which deepens you into failure.

Perhaps, it is true, some of us need to touch happiness and success in order to realize it will never give you what you expect: total fulfillment.

Who really wants to find out that everything they thought was real was nothing but a pocket full of dreams? Who wants to find out that everything they hold onto and cling to is the very reason that they suffer?
— Adyashanti

 

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Perhaps, it is also true, the many formulas Mr. Hubbard wrote down are useful as beginning steps, but it is also true, if you are aware of the fact you are not a body and this “theater” of life an illusion, applying these formulas will be like digging your own grave. A grave of unconsciousness, of self deceptions and lies.

By saying this, the ones who still identified with the body, mind and thoughts and all their activities of having a job, dealing with health, family and friends,  will probably use this post to beef up their ego and just do what their ego requests.

But, be aware, I’m not talking to them, I’m talking to those aware enough to naturally know by personal experience, the energy world to be all connected, the ones able to afford empathy and unconditional love. The ones who, by pure awareness, do not respond or are influenced by the laws of the physical world, by karma, by cause and effect.

So, when you are approaching the first step of confusion of Mr. Hubbard ethic conditions and you are asked : FIND OUT WHERE YOU ARE.

When you truly know you are not here and you are not anywhere really, you are unable to continue to the sub-steps  which requires you to reoriented yourself into the area in which you are and in which you were. Such sub-steps throw you right back into the illusion; the static does not have space-time-form or matter.

Condition of treason: FIND OUT THAT YOU ARE. Does require you to have a post (an assumed identify) and in order to have a post: again, you have to identify with the illusion.

Condition of Enemy: FIND OUT WHO YOU REALLY ARE

Unless you continue to identify with an assumed identity you are unable to move on.

The reason I’m writing this post is because during my association with the Church of $cientology I always felt something was wrong. If I was to answer what I felt to be true, nothing else would have worked. And, of course, in a system where money is the underlying motivation, where the promise of freedom is only a way to lure you into producing more valuable matter, you are not allowed to remove your shackles and fly free.

I know there are others out there who suffered as much as I did while associating with those “merchant of freedom”, who had problem to fit in within their arbitrary boundaries of manipulations. Who had to compromise what they felt to be true, in order to find out more.

As Robert Adams says, if you still identify with your mind, your thoughts and the body, you will be subjected to the laws of the physical universe and his Karma.

But that ‘you’ is not the static, the higher Self. It is your body with which you identify. It is the soul (rarefied matter) and the body, which are subjected to that.

Do you see the difference?

So, I’m sorry, but you cannot play the game-of-freedom thinking you will go somewhere. If you want to awaken, you have to be freedom itself. Always and everywhere.

You have to be awareness and to be truth 100%.  The way to freedom, is a way of life… it is only 100 %.

Freedom from the self
“To free the mind from all conditioning, you must see the totality of it without thought. This is not a conundrum; experiment with it and you will see.
Do you ever see anything without thought? Have you ever listened, looked, without bringing in this whole process of reaction? You will say that it is impossible to see without thought; you will say no mind can be unconditioned.
When you say that, you have already blocked yourself by thought, for the fact is you do not know.
So can I look, can the mind be aware of its conditioning? I think it can. Please experiment. Can you be aware that you are a Hindu, a Socialist, a Communist, this or that, just be aware without saying that it is right or wrong? Because it is such a difficult task just to see, we say it is impossible.
I say it is only when you are aware of this totality of your being without any reaction that the conditioning goes, totally, deeply—which is really the freedom from the self.”
Jiddu Krishnamurti
The Book of Life, May 23, Harper San Francisco, 1995

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Silvia please tell me or write something about the “Implanters” who or what are they?

First thing I would like to remind you, every truth as it enters the world of duality turns into a lie.

Therefore, do not believe anything I say, listen the “energy” beyond words and in the silence of the mind you will get your answer.

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ROBERT ADAMS: “As long as there is something, it’s not that. There’s no thing whatsoever. It’s beyond words and thoughts. … There’s nothing. But nothing is beyond the senses, so it sounds stupid. When your mind is quiet and peaceful, and you sit in the silence, then you become that you’re referring to and that’s none other than your Self. But don’t try to explain the Self. Once you try to explain it, it’s not it. That’s what I mean when I always tell you, just be your Self, be your Self and you will be safe. Don’t be this and don’t be that, but be yourself. Don’t be a woman, don’t be a man, don’t be anything. … Robert Adams Satsang

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How the static enters into a dream, is unclear. But it does, and once into this illusion he get absorbed into different dreams like a molasses smoothly drops from one container into another.

Every time you enter in what we call a dream, the rules change, but as we promptly identify with the character in that “play” it becomes reality.

Castaneda, during his ‘conscious dreaming’ mentions that the moment you enter in a dream and you start interacting and accepting it as reality, you become trapped.

That dream becomes as real as this one.

What is an implant?

An implant is anything which puts you asleep and lessen or erases your native awareness.

At the very moment you start using a mind, thinking it is yours, by the very act of thinking and reorienting yourself in the dream the mind calls life, you are giving power to the implant.

Life itself is an implant.

Every single act performed in this dream, which reinforce the dream, as a parent does with his kids, or as society does in a much broader scale is contributing to the deep sleep. It reinforce the amnesia.

Robert Adams Satsangs: The Collected Works “But you have to realize that you are nothing first and if you’re confounded with all kinds of material things you can’t see that yet.”

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Life dramatizes higher truth.

People devote their life trying to save or help others. Indeed we are in a “prison”. And we need help to escape, but escape is not what we thing, it is not the escape from poverty, from hunger, from a world of violence… it is the waking up from a state of unconsciousness.

The first step of the implant is to get you to identify with a program called mind or self which thinks for you. Once you accept it as you, you are done for it!

Not only that, but everything the mind will have you to do and think, is in the direction of fortifying the implant on yourself and anyone you come in contact to.

We so became an essential part of its enslavement wheel, (truly we are creating this illusion but not as God as the minds make us believe) but as ponds.

Fighting the mind will produce a unlimited sort of uncomfortable feelings and physical pains which deters weak people from ever getting close to the truth.

The mind or the self are the same thing.

Any action in the physical universe, any thought, any consideration about the presence, existence and survival of the self or any self is part of the implant and will give it force.

L.Ron Hubbard mentioned that every item is a wrong item.

Everything a mind can think of is a wrong item for a static. How could a static possibly have items not having a position in space, no form or wavelength?

At the same time Mr. Hubbard has developed and created with $cientology a technology which continuously give items to its followers, false goals, estensive planning (admin scale), and an illusion of power. Scientology one of the many activities implementing the implant called life.

Do you want to awaken?

There is a way, you need to stop playing this game.

Stop ask why, stop setting goals, stop seeking for acknowledgment or reward. Realize desires are what will bring you back to the dream, over and over.

Re-read the definition of static, and ask yourself, how something with no mass, no wavelength, no space is so fixated on having, being, and doing? Who is the one wanting having, being and doing?

The mind.

Remind yourself that every day.

Gurdijeff and Ouspensky call it Self-remember, Castaneda talks about the non-ordinary reality, Robert Adams and his lineage use the question: To whom does this world appear?

First step. Realizing you are asleep. Second step constant alertness of who you truly are.

It is a 24 hours a day work. Intention is the key.

Intention will get you over the enemy of knowledge: Fear, Wisdom, Power and old age.

Intention will bring you to experiment in first person the freedom which a mind hides and try to destroy successfully with your help.

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ROBERT ADAMS SATSANG

So Ramana’s first line of instruction was often to invite the seeker to share his vision: Ýou are Shiva as you are. Why change? Why do sadhana? Just understand who you are, be who you are’.

This was an invitation to anupaya.Only after the bewildered seeker demonstrated that he did not understand this instruction would Ramana go down an upaya or two and ask them to inquire,’Who am I’or say a mantra.

Though you could scarecely call Ramana a Shaivite-both his personality and the tone of his teaching were intensely Vedantic-in this one thin,Ramana was being a Shaivite since he followed the method of offering the highest upaya first.

Ramana’s method gives a clear understanding about the way the upayas work.Imagine a Shaivite sage being approached by a seeker who asks to be taught. The sage,like Ramana says,’Remain as you are.You are Shiva. There is nothing wrong’,offering anupaya.

The seeker says, ‘I can’t do that, I need practice’.

Sage:

Okay, focus on pure awareness.Use your will to stay present to Consciousness Itself. Now he is offering shambhavopya.

The seeker says, ‘I can’t do that’.

The sage says,’Why not?

Seeker: My mind keeps coming in and pulling me away.

Sage:

Okay Purify your mind.Focus in the thought Í am Consciousness’,repeat the mantra.Now he is offering shaktopaya

Seeker: I can’t do that either.

Sage:

Why not?

Seeker: I am obsessed by sex and money and wordly ambition

Sage:

Okay.get married.Get a job. Give some money to the ashram. Do hatha yoga,do breathing exercises and meditate on the form of your Guru or deity. Now he is offering anavopya.

Each upaya solves the difficulty the seeker has with the one above it.

-Swami Lakshmanjoo

Wrong battles and energy spills

In the past few years I have been working in the area of non-duality.

“So we are asking, as at the beginning, can the mind come to that extraordinary seeing, not from the periphery, from the outside, from the boundary, but come upon it without any seeking? And to come upon it without seeking is the only way to find it. Because in coming upon it unknowingly, there is no effort, no seeking, no experience; and there is the total denial of all the normal practices to come into that center, to that flowering. So the mind is highly sharpened, highly awake, and is no longer dependent upon any experience to keep itself awake. When one asks oneself, one may ask verbally; for most people, naturally, it must be verbal. And one has to realize that the word is not the thing—like the word “tree,” is not the tree, is not the actual fact. The actual fact is when one touches it, not through the word but when one actually comes into contact with it. Then it is an actuality—which means the word has lost its power to mesmerize people. For example, the word God is so loaded and it has mesmerized people so much that they will accept or deny, and function like a squirrel in a cage! So the word and the symbol must be set aside.” -Jiddu Krishnamurti, The Book of Life, May 19, HarperSanFrancisco, 1995

It is a path full of wonders and one of the abilities I have re-gained is the sight of energy.

99% of the times what the body eyes tells you you see, it is not what it is.

The mind has been given to all of us in order to keep us busy into living a life fighting for battles, principles and goals which solidify our state of identification with this dream.

Once you silence your mind (by literally quieting it or stop identifying with the thoughts) you will understand why the best way to get out of this game of illusion is by stop playing it.

To stop engaging in wars and battles which, although as suggested by the mind of good aims and principles, do not benefit you or anyone else.

The best thing we can do, it is to increase our awareness as to be able to look beyond words or appearance and to perceive the true intention of people.

Unethical/ unaware people use unstated common agreements, to lead you to believe they are working toward a common goal while their true intention, is of a very different nature.

An agreement, many times and especially when we dealing with customs and traditional behaviors, does not have to be stated verbally and ill intentioned beings know it.

They know that is an agreement is stated or written on stone or not, at the end, does not make any difference.

Con-artists and empaths have their way to gain your trust, to mirror telepathically the ideal scene you always wanted.

Even when you can “see” energy, at times, they are able to block your view, and in order to maintain your sight, you need to distance yourself from them.

This is to say, the only way to solve a wrongdoing it is not to waste time into ‘Justice’ wars, but to make yourself stronger and able to perceive what is beyond body sight or cleverly suggested by the mind.

You need to be able to see their hidden motives, their underlining intention to break the ‘deal’ and those stated or unstated rules/agreements.

Broken expectations steam from non-confront of the fact that this is a dual universe. Trust and betrayal, good or bad, love and hate and so forth do co-exist.

A Sufi story says: “One day the Devil found a piece of truth and brought it to mankind so it could be organized.”

I found the only way to know the truth, which is not 100% but still pretty close, is by looking at energy behind the view of the eyes.

The same thing does apply in dealing with inorganic beings or spirits as many of them have the ability to project deceitful pictures and intentions to the person they deal with.

By recognizing you are not the thinker, you can re-gain the ability to truly “see”.

The body eyes are not there to give you the gift of sight but to blind you from truth.

Robert Adams Satsangs: The Collected Works -“What do you do with your life everyday? How do you live your life? This doesn’t mean that you have to sit home and meditate all day long. It means you can go about your business. You can work. You cannot work. You can go to a movie. You can watch TV. You can do whatever you like, but never identify with the object! Never identify with what the body is doing. Let the body do whatever it came here to do, but you keep the mind and yourself on your heart, on the light, on consciousness. Quiet your mind any way you want, whatever method you use. Become the witness to your thoughts. Use atma-vichara, self-inquiry, whatever method you have to use, do it, but do it all day long, that’s the secret. Not just when you come here, not just an hour a day, but all during the day. “ Page 292

Until people understand fully the true enemy is not visible to the body eyes and cannot be heard with the body ears… they will waste time in wrong battles, exactly as planned by “the implanters”.

If the house is on fire, would you really stop and argue about who spilled the milk on the floor?

When people do not see their true enemy, they waste time fighting all those who wronged them instead of running out the door in a hurry, which is, dedicating their energy to became stronger and to set a positive path for others.

Those are my thoughts.

You will find many people who have been hurt and damaged by the wrongdoings of others… many of them, will get lost in endless war. Some other will recognize the only war worth to fight, is the war of self-discovery and improvements.

When you throw a rock into the pool of energy… the ripples go long ways.

In that way we are all connected and, once you have regained the gift of spiritual sight, you know that to be true.

This post is dedicated to the many who have been severely betrayed, hurt, cheated and are now devoting their lives to assert their rightness under the label of “bringing justice.”

They need to realize there is nothing you gain from a fight, in fact a free spirit is not even interested in fighting. The EGO is.

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Here is another version of the Sufi’s story mentioned above:

“The devil was talking to his friends when they noticed a man walking along a road. They watched him pass and saw that he bent down to pick something up.

“What did he find?” asked one of the friends.

“A piece of Truth,” answered the devil.

The friends were very concerned. After all, a piece of Truth might save that man’s soul – one less in Hell. But the devil remained unmoved, gazing at the view.

“Aren’t you worried?” said one of his companions. “He found a piece of Truth!”

“I’m not worried,” answered the devil.

“Do you know what he’ll do with the piece?”

The devil replied, “as usual, he’ll create a new religion. And he’ll succeed in distancing even more people from the whole Truth.”