What is $cientology?


$cientology;  a financial institution, which makes billions

promising people to turn them into butterflies

while making sure they remain caterpillars.



most pretended spiritual groups do the exact same things.

You want to be free? Stay free.

You cannot buy wisdom, enlightenment and spiritual freedom.

You have to work for it, every day, every hour, every minute.


Spirituality is not a search,

is a way of life.



The Gift


“Do you think you possess special abilities?” she asked with a challenging, wicked smile.

She knew I would say No, as saying Yes, would have been a statement of insanity… And indeed, only two categories of people might admit to have special abilities, the crazy ones and the great masters, the first asserting self-importance and the latter uttering truth.

But my counselor, a young woman with great emphatic abilities and a pure willingness to help, has surrendered her “seeing” to the indoctrination of a system enforcing a generic prescription of what it should be, to anyone, in the process of feeding a corrupted medical  system.

My answer to the above question, however, it was NO. I do not have special abilities. I have what every being was endowed with, at the start of the game; telepathy, empathy, the gift at times terrifying, to be other people.

It is not a special gift, it was something everybody had before they decided, through “experience”, it was too painful to feel the emotions of someone they kill for food or pleasure, or the desperation of the beings they betrayed and any other un-pleasant emotion they caused to another human or living being.

It took a while, life after life (game after game) to shut off those cells in the brain which were made to detect other living beings impulses-emotions-thoughts.

It took a lot of suffering, deception, losses and lies to oneself and to others to make what we have now; a soul identified with a “hologram”, a weak, coward being which believes the only safe way to exists is to assert his independence from others.


It is not a normal condition to be “blind” or “deaf”.

A population infested with a plague does not make that condition of sickness a normality. Do you follow me?

But it requires courage to ‘listen’, to ‘see’, to ‘feel’ especially at this stage of the game, where the majority of people hurt each other in the name of freedom, love and justice. They ‘torture’ one another (physically and/or psychologically) to get pleasure… to feel powerful and safe. Killing as a sport, deceiving and lying as a justified method of advancing in the society. This is what blind people do.

This is where we are.

I have been suffering of severe depression for years… this is what the society categorizes the result of seeing, feeling, and hearing the pain and agony of others. Their tried to numb my perceptions, to convince me it is better to shut it off.


Only by being blind you can avoid seen the slaughter, the abuses and be happy.

Only if you do not know how many beings you are hurting when you selfishly waste, steal, betray or lie to another…

And $cientology today, the way is delivered, is another of the very many numbing practices… which built the ego while promising success for the single being.

The weak, the coward and the un-aware seek power for him/herself and the few he/she think are aiding his survival…

where the strong knows true power and wisdom is the very enemy of the ‘I’ the ‘self’ and that synthetic happiness that can only been achieved by numbing ones knowingness and perceptions.


The BS reasons

The BS reasons


After dedicating a life to the search of truth, after having found out there is no truth in the game of life; in the matrix. I also became aware the greatest crime, is not to God. God, the Supreme infinite being, is too strong to care. The greatest crime is hurting another living being. It is to add pain to the already existing suffering and turmoil of any soul trapped in this illusion.

I looked back  into every contact I had with other souls. I finally found this old boyfriend I was told suffered for quite a while our break up and reached out to let him know I was sorry for that pain, I really wanted him to know I cared.

The interesting thing is that the mind, a contrivance specialize in building up ego and fomenting wars, started feeding me a bunch of memories/reasons for me to make this guy wrong. It suggested I let him know that he never stood up for me, he never was there for me in the first place and a bunch of other nonsense.

I had to detach from the whole situation and remind myself the reason I was contacting him, and that reason being to set him free,  free from any past mis-emotion.

And yet, on a higher level here I was again playing the game of life, a dream, an illusion as if it was real.

Lately I catch myself in this long interesting paths that lead nowhere… and at the end, brings me back again to the the lie I find to be the closest to truth. The best way to “live live” is from the audience chair where we really are, and not in the character we believe to be.

We are not on stage. As J. Krishnamurti said “we are the witnesses not the doers”.




















heavenly lies

At one point I came to realize pain and suffering cannot be erased.


Although is a common and natural impulse for a parent to want their offspring to have a happy life, “to be happy” it is also a delusional and backfiring goal/expectation to imprint on others as it dooms them to continuous disappointments and struggles. It sets them on a war against anything considered less than a mark of success.

At the same times we are also told we have to be patient with things or people who are hurting us, which is an absolute lie. There is no reason whatsoever why you should allow someone to hurt you, not reasons to stay, or lessons to be gained from it.

If you get hit by what acts as a bad energy to your system, just move away.

Do not fight it.

Do not try to be right or wrong, do not label that energy or figure-figure on what the mind is telling you about it. If you recognize that energy as  destructive DO NOT ENGAGE with it, just smoothly move away.


I have no patience for greedy, selfish people and more than that, at this point in my life, I cannot afford to allow parasites of energy around me.
It took me years of counseling (not Scientology. Contrary to what the Church of $cientology teaches you, there is actually good counseling outside Scientology) to finally understand the importance of setting your boundaries. And the first one to set your boundaries with, is your own mind.
The very mind which tells you to engage into fights, to justify others abusing you, to be loyally passive to destructive actions.
Set boundaries to the mind which justify suffering or hurting other to protect yourself, which prompt you to engage in a war… which prompts you to compromise with what you really know to be a vampire of energy disgused as person, group or a situation.
I might have told you before, my view of life is very close to the one illustrated in the Matrix, and in the movie Inception.
Having that view, I know there is very little in this “dream/prison” which counts, yet although asleep, beyond the illusion of installed identities there is consciousness.
A conscious being which is constantly violated and for that, I believe, the only valuable thing we can do for others  (where awakening is not possible) is to alleviate in any possible way or opportunity, that inner pain common to all of us.


Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shown a picture of a gathering with hundreds of people.


Imagine if you were brought in front a big screen and shewn a picture of a gatherer with hundreds of people. Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine you were told you were all this people and the place too.

Imagine if you were also convinced you were each one of this people individually and every time you were actually observing one of them you would assume their program (mind) and adding another mind to the general one it was given to you when you sat in front the screen.

Imagine yourself, now, leaded to believe you’re those people, trying to make them survive, feeling responsible for their future, for each individual future and well being.

Imagine yourself, not knowing is a projection and not knowing they are all one image, starting fights one against another to protect and support the different minds (program)… in truth fighting yourselves.


Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape as one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others.

Imagine yourself feeling something is really wrong and trying to unsuccessfully escape from the screen as a single person… Unsuccessfully, as while you are desperately trying to escape with one, you are continuing your participation in the play with all the others. But again, you do not know that anymore.

And so, you start focusing in campaigns to save the world, while part of you knows there is not such world and, frustrated and upset, is trying to destroy this screen… the very same world you are trying to save.

Some philosophers say we are one and we are responsible for everybody, we are everywhere while some other say we are a single being. From a mind prospective they both potentially right.

However, outside the “minds”there is no us, me, you or I in this projection.

There is a projection and the only way out, is not to play any part in the movie we see.”


In truth, if there is ever going to be a truth understandable or even perceivable and by a mind, there is no us, me or I in this projection. There is a projection and the only way out, at least from the “movie”, is not to play any part in the movie.”

PRISON… what type of a seeker are you?

We are not all the same…

given a house, some will turn it into a castle where others into a dumpster.




Those harmful, good intentions

Those harmful, good intentions

Before we are sent to, or we agree to play this hologram called ‘life’, we are given a mind, we are told that this very mind is necessary to play the game.

By our use of the mind, we gain a position in space and a character in the game (a personality, a sense of self). Without the ‘mind’ the game cannot be seen, therefore you are instructed to ‘wear’ it like a pair of precious glasses, no one after all want to lose the ‘self’.

virtual reality

“Lazarus: There is no dream here and there is no awakening. You and I and this garden are but an illusion, a shadow of the real. The awakening is there where I was with my beloved and the reality.” Lazarus and his Beloved by Kahlil Gibran


But this mind is so designed, as you use it, to take over every bit of consciousness and, before you know it, to became ‘you’. Here it goes your freedom, your ability to recognize life outside this virtual reality.

The mind is so set to give you a sense of duality. It is from duality that thoughts, judgments, visual interpretations of energy into good or bad, happy or sad, pain or joy, steam.

It does not take long to forget oneself, and once you are asleep it is the mind who guides you and lives the life for you as you.

Its very program acquaintances and subjugates you to its rules.

If you are ‘bad’ you will meet ‘hell’, and if you are ‘good’ you will benefit from ‘paradise’.  And once you have learned it cold, you are at the ill effect of a game where every time you intent good you are hurting someone, somewhere or somehow.

We all know very well, after being trapped in this game for a while, how degradation feels.

And because there is nothing you can do about it, you agree, at the end, the best solution is to not see.

If you are aware of what happens only right in front of you, if you are able to shut off the perceptions of the people or beings who are suffering just a block away as a result of your actions, you have it taped. You can “be” the good, your mind has so convinced you to be. You can be the successful, the powerful, the free.

And is it in this very delusion which the worse crimes are performed.


We do not want to know, where the milk comes from and the violence beyond the dairy industry, who and how much abuses are connected to the production of our clothes, how many animals get killed by the islands of plastic flowing in the ocean, to name a few. We do not want to know about freedom either, as, once you agreed you are your mind, you are off to protect this prison called life. You would give your very life and the one of who you care the most to keep it going.

If you do not believe me look the huge business built around the program of death.

Looks the reasons, the activities and even the body stamina available when the shadow of “death” enters anyone sight.

The continuous and constant identification with the mind, built to suffer and rejoice, tells us we better stay alive, where in truth, being alive is to surrender our freedom and it is the very essence of death.


I found a very interesting book by Kahlil Gibran; Lazarus and his Beloved.

It gives a wonderful prospective on death, from the point of view of the awakened… an example of how love, as viewed and experienced by the mind, can be the very essence of evil and the result of further enslavement.

It is most normal reaction for a mother to push her son out of the road once she see a car approaching at speed… it is a tragic discovery to find out, later, the car never existed and the pushing of the son, intended to save him from been run over, resulted in having him falling into the dept of the ravine.

But I guess, till she doesn’t realized there are no cars, she can live peacefully thinking she saved her son.


“He brought you back out of pity for the wingless who would not be along.” – Lazarus and his Beloved by Kahlil Gibran

I’m availbale to help who walks the path to freedom.

I help people to find their own, as no path is the same and no one can walk it for you.

E-mail: SilviaKusada@gmail.com





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